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read on, then went to evening prayers, and devotions somewhat, I think, enlarged. Being afterwards drank tea with buns; then read till earlier than the family, I read St. Paul's fareI finished Leviticus 24 pages et sup.

well in the Acts, and then read fortuitously in To write to Gastrel to-morrow.

the Gospels, which was my parting use of the To look again into Hammond.

library. 30th, Sat. Visitors, Paradise, and I think Horsley.

Read 11 pages of the Bible. I was faint ; dined on herrings and potatoes. At prayers, I

1776. think, in the evening. "I wrote to Gastrel, and

September 6th. received a kind letter from Hector. At night Lowe. Pr. with Francis.

I had just heard of Williams's death. 31st, Easter day. Read 15 pages of the Bible. the Lord of life and death, who givest and who

Alinighty and most merciful Father, who art Cætera alibi.

takest away, teach me to adore thy providence,

whatever thou shalt allot me ; make me to reAT THE TABLE.

member, with due thankfulness, the comforts

which I have received from my friendship with Almighty God, by whose mercy I am now per- mercy, and prepare me, by thy grace, to die with

Anna Williams.* Look upon her, O Lord, with mitted to commemorate my Redemption by our Lord Jesus Christ, grant that this awful remem

hope, and to pass by death to eternal happiness, brance may strengthen my faith, enliven my hope, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. and increase my charity; that I may trust in Thee with my whole heart, and do good according to my power. Grant me the help of thy Holy Spirit, that I may do thy will with diligence, and

1784. suffer it with humble patience; so that when Thou

EASTER Day. shalt call me to judgment, I'may obtain forgive

April 11th. ness and acceptance, for the sake of Jesus our Almighty God, my Creator and my Judge, who Lord and Saviour. Amen.

givest life and takest it away, enable me to return sincere and humble thanks for my late deliverance from imminent death; so govern my future life

by thy Holy Spirit, that every day which Thou Ar DEPARTURE, OR AT HOME. shalt permit to pass over me, may be spent in thy

service, and leave me less tainted with wickedGrant, I beseech Thee, merciful Lord, that the ness, and more submissive to thy will. designs of a new and better life, which by thy Enable me, O Lord, to glorify Thee for that grace I have now formed, may not pass away knowledge of my corruption, and that sense of without effect. Incite and enable me, by thy thy wrath, which my disease, and weakness, and Holy Spirit, to improve the time which Thou shalt danger awakened in my mind. Give me such grant me ; to avoid all evil thoughts, words, and sorrow as may purify my heart, such indignation actions; and to do all the duties which thou shalt as may quench 'all confidence in myself, and such set before me. Hear my prayer, O Lord, for the repentance as may, by the intercession of my Resake of Jesus Christ. Amen.

deemer, obtain pardon. Let the commemoration These prayers I wrote for Mrs. Lucy Porter,* in of the sufferings and death of thy Son, which I

the latter end of the year 1782, and transcribed am now by thy favour once more permitted to them October 9th, 1784.

make, fill me with faith, hope, and charity. Let my purposes be good, and my resolutions unshaken ; and let me not be hindered or distracted

by vain and useless fears, but through the time ON LEAVING MR. THRALE's Family. which yet remains, guide me by thy Holy Spirit,

October 6th, 1782. and finally receive me to everlasting life, for the Almighty God, Father of all mercy, help me, sake of Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour. by thy grace, that I may with humble and sincere Amen. thankfulness remember the comforts and conveniences which I have enjoyed at this place, and that I may resign them with holy submission,

AGAINST INQUISITIVE AND PERPLEXING equally trusting in thy protection when Thou

THOUGHTS. givest and when Thou takest away. Have mercy

August 12th, 1784. upon me, O Lord, have mercy upon me.

O Lord, my Maker and Protector, who hast To thy fatherly protection, O Lord, I commend graciously sent me into this world to work out this family. Bless, guide, and defend them, that my salvation, enable me to drive from me all such they may so pass through this world, as finally to unquiet and perplexing thoughts as may mislead enjoy in thy presence everlasting happiness, for or hinder me in the practice of those duties which Jesus Christ's sake. Amen.

Thou hast required. When I behold the works O Lord, so far as, &c.—Thrale.

of thy hands, and consider the course of thy providence, give me grace always to remember that thy thoughts are not my thoughts, nor thy

ways my ways. And while it shall please Thee I was called early. I packed up my bundles, and to continue me in this world, where much is to be used the foregoing prayer, with my morning

* This lady, who was afficted with blindness, lived

many years with Dr. Johnson, and died in his house. * Daughter-in-law to Dr. Johnson ; she died at Litch. She wrote several Poems, which were published in one field in 1786.

volume 4to. 1766.

October 7th.

done, and little to be known, teach me, by thy | in at the Psalm ; could not hear the reader in
Holy Spirit, to withdraw my mind from unprofit the lessons, but attended the prayers with tran-
able and dangerous inquiries, from difficulues quillity.
vainly curious, and doubts impossible to be solved. To read the New Testament once a year in
Let me rejoice in the light which Thou hast im Greck.
parted, let me serve Thee with active zeal and

Receiving the Sacrament,
humble contidence, and wait with patient ex. I profess my faith in Jesus.
pectation for the time in which the soul which
Thou receivest shall be satisfied with knowledge. I implore, in the highest act of worship, grace is

I declare my resolution to obey him,
Grant this, O Lord, for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen.

keep these resolutions.
I hope to rise to a new life this day.

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Ashbourne, August 28th, 1784. Almighty and most merciful Father, who On the 17th, Mr. Chamier took me away with afflictest not willingly the children of men, and him from Streatham. I left the servants a by whose holy will now languishes in sick

guinea for iny health, and was content enough ness and pain, make, I beseech Thee, this punish

to escape into a house where my birthday, not ment effectual to those gracious purposes for being known, could not be mentioned. I sal which Thou sendest it; let it, if I may presume up till midnight was past, and the day of a new to ask, end not in death, but in repentance; let

year, a very awful day, began. I prayed to him live to promote thy kingdom on earth, by the

God, who had safely brought me to the beginuseful example of a better life ; but if thy will be

ning of another year, but could not perfectly to call him hence, let his thoughts be so purified

recollect the prayer, and supplied it. Such by his sufferings, that he may be admitted to eter desertions of meinory I have always had. nal happiness. And, O Lord, by praying for him, When I rose on the 18th, I think I prayed again, let me be admonished to consider my own sins,

then walked with my friend into his grounds. and my own danger, to remember the shortness

When I came back, after some time passed in of life, and to use the time which thy mercy grants

the library, finding myself oppressed by sleepime to thy glory and my own salvation, for the

ness, I retired to my chamber, where, by lying sake of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

down, and a short imperfect slumber, I was

refreshed, and prayed as the night before.
I then dined, and trified in the parlour and library,

and was freed from a scruple about Horace. [The following Prayer was composed and used At last I went to bed, having first composed a by Doctor Johnson previous to his receiving

prayer. the Sacrament of the Lord's Supper, on Sun- 19ih, Sunday. I went to church, and attended day, December 5th, 1784.)

the service. I found at church a time to use

my prayer, O Lord, have mercy,
Almighty and most merciful Father, I am now,
as to human eyes it seems, about to commemo-
rate, for the last time, * the death of thy Son Jesus

July 30th
Christ, our Saviour and Redeemer. Grant, o
Lord, 'that my whole hope and confidence may world, who sendest sickness and restorest health,

Almighty God, Creator and Governor of the be in his merits, and thy mercy; enforce and enable me to consider, with a just sense of the accept my imperfect repentance; make this com- mercy, the deliverance which Thou hast lately memoration available to the confirmation of my granted me, and assist by thy blessing, as is best faith, the establishment of my hope, and the en-, for me, the means which I shall use for the cure largement of my charity; and make the death of of the disease with which I am now afflicted. thy Son Jesus Christ effectual to my redemption. Increase my patience, teach me submission to thy Have mercy upon me, and pardon the multitude will, and so rule my thoughts and direct my acof my offences. Bless my friends ; have mercy tions, that I may be finally

received to everlasting upon all men. Support me by thy Holy Spirit, happiness, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. in the days of weakness, and at the hour of death; and receive me, at my death, to everlasting happiness, for the sake of Jesus Christ. Amen.


Almighty God, our heavenly Father, without [The following Meditations and Prayers have no whose help labour is useless, without whose ligtas dates in the MS.)

search is vain, invigorate my studies, and direct

my inquiries, that I may, by due diligence and I did not, this week, labour my preparation so right discernment, establish myself and others in

much as I have sometimes done. ‘My mind thy Holy Faith. Take not, O Lord, thy Holy
was not very quiet; and an anxious prepara. Spirit from me; let not evil thoughts have do
tion makes the duty of the day formidable and minion in my mind. Let me not linger in ignon
burdensome. Different methods suit different rance, but enlighten and support me, for the sake
states of mind, body, and affairs. I rose this of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
day, and prayed, then went to tea, and
wards composed the Prayer, which I formed
with great fuency. I went to church; came

O Lord God, in whose hand are the wills and * He died the 13th following

affections of men, kindle in my mind holy desires,


and repress sinful and corrupt imaginations ; ena- oy thy Holy Spirit, to amend my life, according ble me to love thy commandments, and to desire to thy Holy Word, for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen. thy promises ; let me, by thy protection and in/uence, so pass through things temporal, as finally not to lose the things eternal; and among the hopes and fears, the pleasures and sorrows, O merciful God, full of compassion, long-sufthe dangers and deliverances, and all the changes fering, and of great pity, who sparest when we of this life, let my heart be surely fixed, by the deserve punishment, and in thy wrath thinkest help of thy Holy Spirit

, on the everlasting fruition upon mercy; make me earnestly to repent, and of ihy presence, where true joys are to be found. heartily to be sorry for all my misdoings; make Grant, O Lord, these petitions. Forgive, O mer- the remembrance so burdensome and painful, that ciful Lord, whatever I have done contrary to thy I may flee to Thee with a troubled spirit and a laws. Give me such a sense of my wickedness contrite heart; and, O merciful Lord, visit, comas may produce true contrition and effectual re- fort, and relieve me; cast me not out from thy pentance, so that when I shall be called into presence and take not thy Holy Spirit from me, another state, I may be received among the but excite in me true repentance; give me in this sinners to whom sorrow and reformation

have world knowledge of thy truth, and confidence in obtained pardon, for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen. thy mercy, and in the world to come life everlast

ing, for the sake of our Lord and Saviour, thy Son Jesus Christ. Amen.

Almighty and most merciful Father, whose clemency I now presume to implore, after a long life of carelessness and wickedness, have mercy

EJACULATION. upon me. I have committed many trespasses; have neglected many duties. I have done what

Imploring Diligence. Thou hast forbidden, and left undone what Thou hast commanded. Forgive, merciful Lord, my O God, make me to remember that the night sins, negligences, and ignorances, and enable me, I cometh when no man can work.


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