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read on, then went to evening prayers, and devotions somewhat, I think, enlarged. Being afterwards drank tea with buns; then read till earlier than the family, I read St. Paul's fareI finished Leviticus 24 pages et sup.
well in the Acts, and then read fortuitously in To write to Gastrel to-morrow.
the Gospels, which was my parting use of the To look again into Hammond.
library. 30th, Sat. Visitors, Paradise, and I think Horsley.
Read 11 pages of the Bible. I was faint ; dined on herrings and potatoes. At prayers, I
1776. think, in the evening. "I wrote to Gastrel, and
September 6th. received a kind letter from Hector. At night Lowe. Pr. with Francis.
I had just heard of Williams's death. 31st, Easter day. Read 15 pages of the Bible. the Lord of life and death, who givest and who
Alinighty and most merciful Father, who art Cætera alibi.
takest away, teach me to adore thy providence,
whatever thou shalt allot me ; make me to reAT THE TABLE.
member, with due thankfulness, the comforts
which I have received from my friendship with Almighty God, by whose mercy I am now per- mercy, and prepare me, by thy grace, to die with
Anna Williams.* Look upon her, O Lord, with mitted to commemorate my Redemption by our Lord Jesus Christ, grant that this awful remem
hope, and to pass by death to eternal happiness, brance may strengthen my faith, enliven my hope, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. and increase my charity; that I may trust in Thee with my whole heart, and do good according to my power. Grant me the help of thy Holy Spirit, that I may do thy will with diligence, and
1784. suffer it with humble patience; so that when Thou
EASTER Day. shalt call me to judgment, I'may obtain forgive
April 11th. ness and acceptance, for the sake of Jesus our Almighty God, my Creator and my Judge, who Lord and Saviour. Amen.
givest life and takest it away, enable me to return sincere and humble thanks for my late deliverance from imminent death; so govern my future life
by thy Holy Spirit, that every day which Thou Ar DEPARTURE, OR AT HOME. shalt permit to pass over me, may be spent in thy
service, and leave me less tainted with wickedGrant, I beseech Thee, merciful Lord, that the ness, and more submissive to thy will. designs of a new and better life, which by thy Enable me, O Lord, to glorify Thee for that grace I have now formed, may not pass away knowledge of my corruption, and that sense of without effect. Incite and enable me, by thy thy wrath, which my disease, and weakness, and Holy Spirit, to improve the time which Thou shalt danger awakened in my mind. Give me such grant me ; to avoid all evil thoughts, words, and sorrow as may purify my heart, such indignation actions; and to do all the duties which thou shalt as may quench 'all confidence in myself, and such set before me. Hear my prayer, O Lord, for the repentance as may, by the intercession of my Resake of Jesus Christ. Amen.
deemer, obtain pardon. Let the commemoration These prayers I wrote for Mrs. Lucy Porter,* in of the sufferings and death of thy Son, which I
the latter end of the year 1782, and transcribed am now by thy favour once more permitted to them October 9th, 1784.
make, fill me with faith, hope, and charity. Let my purposes be good, and my resolutions unshaken ; and let me not be hindered or distracted
by vain and useless fears, but through the time ON LEAVING MR. THRALE's Family. which yet remains, guide me by thy Holy Spirit,
October 6th, 1782. and finally receive me to everlasting life, for the Almighty God, Father of all mercy, help me, sake of Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour. by thy grace, that I may with humble and sincere Amen. thankfulness remember the comforts and conveniences which I have enjoyed at this place, and that I may resign them with holy submission,
AGAINST INQUISITIVE AND PERPLEXING equally trusting in thy protection when Thou
THOUGHTS. givest and when Thou takest away. Have mercy
August 12th, 1784. upon me, O Lord, have mercy upon me.
O Lord, my Maker and Protector, who hast To thy fatherly protection, O Lord, I commend graciously sent me into this world to work out this family. Bless, guide, and defend them, that my salvation, enable me to drive from me all such they may so pass through this world, as finally to unquiet and perplexing thoughts as may mislead enjoy in thy presence everlasting happiness, for or hinder me in the practice of those duties which Jesus Christ's sake. Amen.
Thou hast required. When I behold the works O Lord, so far as, &c.—Thrale.
of thy hands, and consider the course of thy providence, give me grace always to remember that thy thoughts are not my thoughts, nor thy
ways my ways. And while it shall please Thee I was called early. I packed up my bundles, and to continue me in this world, where much is to be used the foregoing prayer, with my morning
* This lady, who was afficted with blindness, lived
many years with Dr. Johnson, and died in his house. * Daughter-in-law to Dr. Johnson ; she died at Litch. She wrote several Poems, which were published in one field in 1786.
volume 4to. 1766.
done, and little to be known, teach me, by thy | in at the Psalm ; could not hear the reader in
Receiving the Sacrament,
I declare my resolution to obey him,
keep these resolutions.
Ashbourne, August 28th, 1784. Almighty and most merciful Father, who On the 17th, Mr. Chamier took me away with afflictest not willingly the children of men, and him from Streatham. I left the servants a by whose holy will now languishes in sick
guinea for iny health, and was content enough ness and pain, make, I beseech Thee, this punish
to escape into a house where my birthday, not ment effectual to those gracious purposes for being known, could not be mentioned. I sal which Thou sendest it; let it, if I may presume up till midnight was past, and the day of a new to ask, end not in death, but in repentance; let
year, a very awful day, began. I prayed to him live to promote thy kingdom on earth, by the
God, who had safely brought me to the beginuseful example of a better life ; but if thy will be
ning of another year, but could not perfectly to call him hence, let his thoughts be so purified
recollect the prayer, and supplied it. Such by his sufferings, that he may be admitted to eter desertions of meinory I have always had. nal happiness. And, O Lord, by praying for him, When I rose on the 18th, I think I prayed again, let me be admonished to consider my own sins,
then walked with my friend into his grounds. and my own danger, to remember the shortness
When I came back, after some time passed in of life, and to use the time which thy mercy grants
the library, finding myself oppressed by sleepime to thy glory and my own salvation, for the
ness, I retired to my chamber, where, by lying sake of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
down, and a short imperfect slumber, I was
refreshed, and prayed as the night before.
and was freed from a scruple about Horace. [The following Prayer was composed and used At last I went to bed, having first composed a by Doctor Johnson previous to his receiving
prayer. the Sacrament of the Lord's Supper, on Sun- 19ih, Sunday. I went to church, and attended day, December 5th, 1784.)
the service. I found at church a time to use
my prayer, O Lord, have mercy,
Almighty God, Creator and Governor of the be in his merits, and thy mercy; enforce and enable me to consider, with a just sense of the accept my imperfect repentance; make this com- mercy, the deliverance which Thou hast lately memoration available to the confirmation of my granted me, and assist by thy blessing, as is best faith, the establishment of my hope, and the en-, for me, the means which I shall use for the cure largement of my charity; and make the death of of the disease with which I am now afflicted. thy Son Jesus Christ effectual to my redemption. Increase my patience, teach me submission to thy Have mercy upon me, and pardon the multitude will, and so rule my thoughts and direct my acof my offences. Bless my friends ; have mercy tions, that I may be finally
received to everlasting upon all men. Support me by thy Holy Spirit, happiness, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. in the days of weakness, and at the hour of death; and receive me, at my death, to everlasting happiness, for the sake of Jesus Christ. Amen.
ON THE STUDY OF RELIGION.
Almighty God, our heavenly Father, without [The following Meditations and Prayers have no whose help labour is useless, without whose ligtas dates in the MS.)
search is vain, invigorate my studies, and direct
my inquiries, that I may, by due diligence and I did not, this week, labour my preparation so right discernment, establish myself and others in
much as I have sometimes done. ‘My mind thy Holy Faith. Take not, O Lord, thy Holy
O Lord God, in whose hand are the wills and * He died the 13th following
affections of men, kindle in my mind holy desires,
and repress sinful and corrupt imaginations ; ena- oy thy Holy Spirit, to amend my life, according ble me to love thy commandments, and to desire to thy Holy Word, for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen. thy promises ; let me, by thy protection and in/uence, so pass through things temporal, as finally not to lose the things eternal; and among the hopes and fears, the pleasures and sorrows, O merciful God, full of compassion, long-sufthe dangers and deliverances, and all the changes fering, and of great pity, who sparest when we of this life, let my heart be surely fixed, by the deserve punishment, and in thy wrath thinkest help of thy Holy Spirit
, on the everlasting fruition upon mercy; make me earnestly to repent, and of ihy presence, where true joys are to be found. heartily to be sorry for all my misdoings; make Grant, O Lord, these petitions. Forgive, O mer- the remembrance so burdensome and painful, that ciful Lord, whatever I have done contrary to thy I may flee to Thee with a troubled spirit and a laws. Give me such a sense of my wickedness contrite heart; and, O merciful Lord, visit, comas may produce true contrition and effectual re- fort, and relieve me; cast me not out from thy pentance, so that when I shall be called into presence and take not thy Holy Spirit from me, another state, I may be received among the but excite in me true repentance; give me in this sinners to whom sorrow and reformation
have world knowledge of thy truth, and confidence in obtained pardon, for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen. thy mercy, and in the world to come life everlast
ing, for the sake of our Lord and Saviour, thy Son Jesus Christ. Amen.
Almighty and most merciful Father, whose clemency I now presume to implore, after a long life of carelessness and wickedness, have mercy
EJACULATION. upon me. I have committed many trespasses; have neglected many duties. I have done what
Imploring Diligence. Thou hast forbidden, and left undone what Thou hast commanded. Forgive, merciful Lord, my O God, make me to remember that the night sins, negligences, and ignorances, and enable me, I cometh when no man can work.