The jealous God, when we profane his fires, 81
Those restless paffions in revenge infpires,
And bids them make mistaken mortals groan,
Who feek in love for aught but love alone.
Should at my feet the world's great master fall, 85
Himself, his throne, his world, I'd fcorn 'em all:
Not Cæfar's empress would I deign to prove;
No, make me mistress to the man I love;
If there be yet another name more free,
More fond than mistress, make me that to thee!
Oh! happy state! when fouls each other draw, 91
When love is liberty, and nature, law:
All then is full, poffeffing and poffeft,
No craving void left aking in the breaft:
Ev'n thought meets thought, ere from the lips it
part,
95
And each warm wish springs mutual from the heart.
This fure is blifs (if bliss on earth there be)
And once the lot of Abelard and me.
100
Alas how chang'd! what fudden horrors rise! A naked Lover bound and bleeding lies! Where, where was Eloïfe? her voice, her hand! Her ponyard had oppos'd the dire command. Barbarian, ftay! that bloody ftroke reftrain; The crime was common, common be the pain. VOL. II.
I can no more, by fhame, by rage fupprefs'd, 10g
Let tears, and burning blushes speak the rest.
III
Canft thou forget that fad, that folemn day,
When victims at yon altar's foot we lay?
Canft thou forget what tears that moment fell,
When, warm in youth, I bade the world farewell?
As with cold lips I kiss'd the facred veil,
The shrines all trembled, and the lamps grew pale;
Heav'n fcarce believ'd the Conqueft it furvey'd,
And Saints with wonder heard the vows I made.
Yet then, to thofe dread altars as I drew,
115
Not on the Cross my eyes were fix'd but you :
Not grace, or zeal, love only was my call,
And if I lose thy love, I lose my all.
Come! with thy looks, thy words, relieve my
woe;
Thofe ftill at least are left thee to bestow.
Still on that breast enamour'd let me lie,
Still drink delicious poifon from thy eye.
Pant on thy lip, and to thy heart be press'd;
Give all thou canst---and let me dream the rest.
Ah no! inftruct me other joys to prize,
With other beauties charm my partial eyes,
Full in my view fet all the bright abode,
And make my foul quit Abelard for God,
125
Ah think at least thy flock deferves thy care,
Plants of thy hand, and children of thy pray'r 130
From the false world in early youth they fled,
By thee to mountains, wilds, and deserts led.
You rais'd thefe hallow'd walls; the defert fmil'd,
And Paradise was open'd in the Wild.
No weeping orphan saw his father's ftores 135
Our shrines irradiate, or emblaze the floors;
No filver faints, by dying mifers giv'n,
Here brib'd the rage of ill requited heav'n:
But fuch plain roofs as piety could raise,
And only vocal with the Maker's praise.
In these lone walls (their days eternal bound)
These moss-grown domes with spiry turrets
crown'd,
145
Where awful arches make a noon-day night,
And the dim windows shed a folemn light;
Thy eyes diffus'd a reconciling ray,
And gleams of glory brighten'd all the day.
But now no face divine contentment wears,
"Tis all blank fadnefs, or continual tears.
See how the force of others pray'rs I try,
(O pious fraud of am'rous charity!)
NOTES.
VER. 133. You rais'd thefe hallow'd walls ;] He founded the Monaftery. P.
But why should I on others pray'rs depend?
Come thou, my father, brother, husband, friend!
Ah let thy handmaid, fifter, daughter move,
And all thofe tender names in one, thy love!
The darkfome pines that o'er yon rocks reclin'd
Wave high, and murmur to the hollow wind, 156
The wand'ring ftreams that shine between the hills,
The grots that echo to the tinkling rills,
The dying gales that pant upon the trees,
The lakes that quiver to the curling breeze; 160
No more these scenes my meditation aid,
Or lull to reft the visionary maid.
But o'er the twilight groves and dusky caves,
Long-founding ifles, and intermingled graves,
Black Melancholy fits, and round her throws 165
A death-like filence, and a dread repose:
Her gloomy presence faddens all the scene,
Shades ev'ry flow'r, and darkens ev'ry green,
Deepens the murmur of the falling floods,
And breathes a browner horror on the woods.
Yet here for ever, ever must I stay;
Sad proof how well a lover can obey!
Death, only death, can break the lasting chain;
And here, ev'n then, fhall my cold duft remain,
Here all its frailties, all its flames refign,
And wait till 'tis no fin to mix with thine.
190
Ah wretch! believ'd the spouse of God in vain, Confefs'd within the flave of love and man. Affist me, heav'n! but whence arose that pray'r? Sprung it from piety, or from despair? Ev'n here, where frozen chastity retires, Love finds an altar for forbidden fires. I ought to grieve, but cannot what I ought; I mourn the lover, not lament the fault; I view my crime, but kindle at the view, Repent old pleasures, and follicit new; Now turn'd to heav'n, I weep my paft offence, Now think of thee, and curfe my innocence. Of all affliction taught a lover yet, 'Tis fure the hardest science to forget! How shall I lose the fin, yet keep the sense, And love th' offender, yet deteft th' offence? How the dear object from the crime remove, Or how distinguish penitence from love? Unequal tafk! a paffion to refign, 195 For hearts fo touch'd, fo pierc'd, fo loft as mine. Ere fuch a foul regains its peaceful state, How often muft it love, how often hate!
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