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I have been but a little time converfant in the World, yet I have already had frequent Opportunities of observing the little Eficacy of Remonftrance and Complaint, which, however extorted by Oppression, or supported by Reason, is detested by one Part of the World as Rebellion, censured by another as Peevishness, by another heard with an Appearance of Compassion, only to betray any of those Şallies of Vehemence and Resentment, which are apt to break out upon Encouragement, and by others passed over with Indifference and Neglect, as Matters in which they have no Concern, and which, if they should endeavour to examine or regulate, they might draw Mis chief upon themfelves.
Yet since it is no less natural for those who think themselves injured to complain, than for others to neglect their Complaints, I shall venture to lay my Case before you, in hopes that you will enforce my Opinion, if you think it juft, or endeavour to rectify my Sentiments, if I am mistaken. I expect, at lealt, that you will divest yourself of Partiality, and that whatever your Age or Solemnity may be,
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you will not with the Dotard's Insolence, pronounce me ignorant, and foolish, perverse, and refractory, only because you perceive that I am young
My Father dying when I was but ten Years old, left me, and a Brother two Years younger than myself, to the Care of my Mother, a Woman of Birth, and well bred, whose Prudence, or Virtue, he had no reason to diftruft. She felt, for some time, all the Sorrow which Nature calls forth, upon the final Seperation of Perfons dear to one another; and as her Grief was exhausted by its own Violence, it subsided into Tenderness for me and my Brother, and the Year of Mourning was spent in Caresses, Consolations, and Instructions, in Celebration of my Father's Virtues, in Profeffions of perpetual Regard to his Memory, and hourly Instances of such Fondness as Gratitude will not easily suffer me to forget.
But when the Term of this mournful Felicity was expired, and my Mother appeared again without the Enfigns of Sorrow, the Ladies of her Acquaintance began to tell her, upon whatever Motives, that it was time to live like the rest of the World; a powerful Argument, which is feldom used to a Woman without Effect. Lady Giddy: was incessantly relating the Occurrences of the Town, and Mrs. Gravely told her privately, with great Tenderness, that it began to be publickly observéd how much she over-acted her Part, and that most of her. Acquaintance suspected her Hope of
procuring another Husband to be the true Ground of all that Appearance of Tenderness and Piety.
All the Officiousness of Kindness and Folly was bufied to change her Conduct. She was at one time alarmed with Censure, and at another fired with Praise. She was told of Balls, where others fhone only because she was absent; of new Comedies to which all the Town was crowding, and of many ingenious Ironies, by which domestick Dili gence was made contemptible.
It is difficult for Virtue to stand alone against Fear on one side, and Pleasure on the other; especially when no actual Crime is proposed, and Pru. dence itself can suggest many Reasons for Relaxation and Indulgence. My Mamma was at last perfuaded to accompany Miss Giddy to a Play. She was received with a boundless Profusion of Com. pliment, and attended home by a very fine Gentleman. Next Day the was with less Difficulty prevailed on to play at Mrs. Gravely's, and came home gay and lively; for the Distinctions that had been paid her awakened her Vanity; and good Luck had kept her Principles of Frugality from giving her Disturbance. She now made her second Entrance into the World, and her Friends were sufficiently industrious to prevent any Return to her former Life ; every Morning brought Messages of Invitation, and every Evening was paffed in Places of Diverfion, from which the for some time complained that she had rather be absent.' 'In a thort time the began to feel the Happiness of acting
without Controul, of being unaccountable for her Hours, her Expences, and her Company; and, learned, by degrees, to drop an Expression of Contempt, or Pity, at the Mention of Ladies, whore Husbands were fuspected of restraining their Plea. fures, or their Play, and confessed that she loved to go and come as he pleased.
I was still favoured with fome incidental Pres cepts, and transient Endearments, and was now and then fondly kissed for smiling like my Papa : but most Part of her Morning was spent in comparing the Opinion of her Maid and Milliner, contriving fome Variation in her Dress, visiting Shops, and sending Compliments, and the rest of the Day was too short for Visits, Cards, Plays, and Concerts.
She now began to discover that it was impoffible to educate Children properly at Home ; Parents could not have them always in their Sight, the Society of Servants was contagious, Company produced Boldness and Spirit, Emulation excited Industry, and a large School was naturally the first Step into the open World.
World. - A thousand other Reafons she alledged, some of little Force in themselves, but so well seconded by Pleasure, Vanity, and Idleness, that they soon overcame all the remaining Principles of Kindness and Piety, and both I, and my Brother, were dispatched to Boarding Schools.
How my Mamma spent her Time when she was thus dilburthened I am not able to inform you, but I have reason to believe that Trifles and Amuse