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can live two days ; but, blessed be God, death does not appear terrible to me, though I did not think it so near, yet, for fome months past, I have lived in a daily preparation for it.” He then expreffèd the strongest confidence and trust in the Lord Jesus Christ, as his Saviour, and his willingness to depart and be with him. He said, “ H I had a wish to live, it was to be instrumental in carrying on the work in the chapel, and in affifting those who are concerned in it. But I can commit all to God, who will raise up some other perfon in my place, more fit to undertake that important charge than I am.”—That evening he fent for his papers, put them in order, revised the narrative of his conversion, made his will, and gave particular directions with regard to his funeral. He then took a folemn leave of the friend who staid with him; and afterwards faid, “I hope to be in heaven before the inorning, but go you to bed, I shall send for you in time to close my eyes. Do not mourn for me, you have more cause to rejoice; my mind is in perfect peace.” Next day his complaints abated, which he seemed to regret. “ I wilh,” said he, “this may not be a temptation to me; last night I gave. up every thing to God, my friends, the chapel, and all that is dear to me on earth. I now wish to depart; I have nothing niore to do here.”

Some of his relations coming to see him, he spoke to them with much earneftness, entreating them with tears to be mindful of the salvation of their louls.--At night, while sitting at fupper, he suddenly fell very low, and thought himself going; and taking a glass of wine and water, he turned about to his friend, and said, in allusion to Matt. xxvi. 29. Henceforth, I shall drink no more with you of the fruit of the vine, but we shall drink it together new in our Father's kingdom." He then, with great compofure, and sweet ferenity of mind, laid him down in his bed, in the view of rising up no more in this world. But in this he was mistaken; he had yet to exercise much faith and patience during seven weeks of very great weakness and distress; but while the

outward man decayed, the inward man seemed to be gaining fresh vigour from day to day. He continued for some weeks in a heavenly frame of mind, longing much to depart; frequently crying out, “O when thall I behold his blessed face! Why are his chariot-wheels so long in coming! O time, time, fly on thy swiftest wings, and hasten the happy period when I shall be admitted into the presence of my God, even my God and Saviour; nevertheless, not my will, but thine be done, thy time is best.”

One evening, when talking of the affairs of the chapel, he said, “what pride have I discovered in my heart of late; how could I undertake so great a charge; I was not fit for it; and the Lord, in loving kindness to me, and the congregation, is taking me away.--I believe afsuredly, that he will now give them one better qualified for the office than I'am; and the gospel will be preached in that place for many generations yet to come.”— Another time he said, “ I see myself to be so great a finner, that if God was now to condemn me, and bid me depart from him for ever, I must acknowledge the justice of the sentence, and say amen to it. Yet have I a firm, unshaken hope of eternal life, purchased for me by the merits of Christ, and conferred upon me as a free gift: Hitherto nothing has been able to raise a doubt in my mind concerning my state; I feel that I love holiness, and hate fin, which is an undoubted evidence that I belong to Christ; and, supposing there was no heaven, my soul could not go to hell, for I have no communion with its inhabitants: I hate the works of darkness, and this appears to me to be the surest test of a soul being born again.

To lome friends who came to see him, he said, “ I have no extraordinary joys, nor bright manifestations, like what I have read and heard that others enjoyed when in my situation; but my mind is kept in perfect peace, resting upon the word and promise of God. I have little pain of body, and no uneasiness of mind-I do not feel one murmuring thought-the Lord gives The perfect submission to his will—I desire no alteration in my situation and shall never be able, while in the body, to express my grátitude for the mercies I enjoy. He gave many excellent advices to a young minister who came to see him, about preaching Christ without the fear, or seeking the favour of men; exhorting him to employ his health and strength while he had them, in the service of his blessed Master.

One morning he told a friend, that during the night he had been much distreffed with a dark cloud that came "over his mind, and made him unable to pray, and meditate upon spiritual subjects (which were his usual ex. ercises in the night seafon), but towards the morning it was removed, and he had a sweet time; the Lord had drawn near to his soul, and renewed his promise to him in Isaiah xli., 10. “ Fear not, for I am with thee; be not dismayed, for I am thy God,” &c. Which words had been sent home with uncommon power upon his mind the evening before he left Holland, when wrestling in *prayer for the Lord's presence to accompany him to his native land; and they had frequently afforded him support and comfort during the course of his ministry.

When distreffed in the night with the cough, he remarked that the Lord kept him from murmuring, and gave him such patience and peace of mind as greatly alleviated his sufferings.

One evening, when employed in meditation, he broke out into many sweet ejaculations, and repeated some portions of scripture, which seemed to afford him peculiar delight; such as, Pfal. Ixxiii. 24–26. “ Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterwards receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but thee; and there is none upon the earth that I defire besides thee: My felh and my heart faileth, but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.---Because I live, ye Thall live also.*— Jesus Christ, the same yesterday, today, and for ever."-He then said, “ I have till lately been in an error, and have entertained wrong apprehenfions of God. I viewed him as angry with man, and had fome confused ideas of the danger of approaching him out of Christ, but now I see that God is love. The Father himself lavetle you. God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth ixt him, might not perish, but have everlasting life.-Glory be to the Father, whose love prompted him to send the Són; glory.be to the Son, who gave himself a voluntary ransom for finners; and glory be to the Holy Ghost, who applies this salvation, and brings it home to their fouls.'

* Jolin xiv, 19.

+ Heb. xiii. S.

(To be concluded in our next.)

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The Mediation of Christ consistent with Reason.

[Extracted from Fuller's Gospel its own Witness.] HE sense of mankind, with regard to the necessity

of a mediator, inay be illustrated by the following fiinilitude. Let us suppose a division in the arıny of one of the wileft and best of kings, through the evil counsel of a foreign enemy, to have been disaffected to his government, and that without any provocation on his part, they traitorously conspired against his crown and life. The attempt failed; and the offenders were seized, disarmed, tried by the laws of their country, and condemned to die. A respite, however, was granted to them, during his majesty's pleasure. At this folemn period, while every part of the army, and of the empire, was expecting the fatal order for exccution, the king was employed in meditating mercy. But how could mercy be shewn?“ To make light of a conspiracy,” faid he to his friends, “would loosen the bands of good government; other divisions of the army might be tempted to follow their example; and the nation at large might be in danger of imputing it to tamenefs, fear, or love unworthy motive.”

: Every one felt in this case the necessity of a Media ator, and agreed as to the general line of conduct proper for him to pursue.

“ He must not attempt,” said they, " to compromise the difference by dividing the blame: that would make things worse.

He must justify the king, and condemn the outrage committed against him ; he must offer, if possible, some honorable expedient, by means of which the bestowment of pardon shall not relax, but strengthen just authority ; he must convince the conspirators of their crime, and introduce them in the character of supplicants ; and mercy must be shewn them out of respect to him, or for his sake."

But who could be found to mediate in such a cause? This was an important question. A work of this kind, it was allowed on all hands, required singular qualifications. “ He must be perfectly clear of any participation in the offence," said one, “or inclination to favor it : for to pardon conspirators at the intercession of one who is friendly to their cause, would be not only making light of the crime, but giving a sanction to it.'

“He must,” said another, “be one who on account of his character and services stands high in the esteem of the king and of the public : for to mediate in such a "cause is to become, in a sort, responsible for the issue. A mediator in effect pledges his honor that no evil will result to the state from the granting of his request. But if a mean opinion be entertained of him, no trust can be placed in him, and consequently no good impression would be made by his mediation on the public mind." * I conceive it is necessary,” said a third,

« that the weight of the mediation should bear a proportion to the magnitude of the crime, and to the value of the favor requested ; and that for this end it is proper he should be a person of great dignily.--For his majesty to pardon a company of conspirators at the intercession of one of their former comrades, or of any other obscure character, even though he might be a worthy man, Vol. II. No. I.

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