With slow, faint steps, and much exceeding pain, Have scrambled past those pits of fire, that still Sing in mine ears. But yield not me the praise: God only thro' his bounty hath thought fit, Among the powers and princes of this world, To make me an example to mankind, Which few can reach to. Yet I do not say But that a time may come-yea, even now,
Now, now, his footsteps smite the threshold stairs Of life-I say, that time is at the doors When you may worship me without reproach; For I will leave my relics in your land, And you may carve a shrine about my dust, And burn a fragraut lamp before my bones, When I am gather'd to the glorious saints.
While I spake then, a sting of shrewdest pain Ran shrivelling thro' me, and a cloud-like change, In passing, with a grosser film made thick These heavy, horny eyes. The end! the end! Surely the end! What's here? a shape, a shade, A flash of light. Is that the angel there That holds a crown? Come, blessed brother, come, I know thy glittering face. I waited long; My brows are ready. What! deny it now? Nay, draw, draw, draw nigh. So I clutch it. Christ! "Tis gone: 'tis here again: the crown! the crown! So now 'tis fitted on and grows to me. And from it melt the dews of Paradise, Sweet! sweet! spikenard, and balm, and frankin-
Ah! let me not be fool'd, sweet saints: I trust That I am whole, and clean, and meet for Heaven. Speak, if there be a priest, a man of God, Among you there, and let him presently Approach, and lean a ladder on the shaft, And climbing up into my airy home, Deliver me the blessed sacrament; For by the warning of the Holy Ghost, I prophesy that I shall die to-night, A quarter before twelve.
But thou, O Lord, Aid all this foolish people; let them take Example, pattern: lead them to thy light.
THE TALKING OAK.
ONCE more the gate behind me falls; Once more before my face
I see the moulder'd Abbey-walls, That stand within the chace.
Beyond the lodge the city lies, Beneath its drift of smoke; And ah! with what delighted eyes I turn to yonder oak.
For when my passion first began, Ere that, which in me burn'd,
The love, that makes me thrice a man, Could hope itself return'd;
To yonder oak within the field I spoke without restraint, And with a larger faith appeal'd Than Papist unto Saint.
For oft I talk'd with him apart, And told him of my choice, Until he plagiarized a heart,
And answer'd with a voice.
Tho' what he whisper'd, under Heaven None else could understand;
I found him garrulously given,
A babbler in the land.
But since I heard him make reply Is many a weary hour;
'Twere well to question him, and try If yet he keeps the power.
Hail, hidden to the knees in fern, Broad Oak of Sumner-chace, Whose topmost branches can discern The roofs of Sumner-place!
Say thou, whereon I carved her name, If ever maid or spouse,
As fair as my Olivia, came
To rest beneath thy boughs.
"O Walter, I have shelter'd here Whatever maiden grace
The good old Summers, year by year, Made ripe in Sumner-chace:
"Old Summers, when the monk was fat, And, issuing shorn and sleek, Would twist his girdle tight, and pat The girls upon the cheek,
"Ere yet, in scorn of Peter's-pence, And number'd bead and shrift, Bluff Harry broke into the spence, And turn'd the cowls adrift:
"And I have seen some score of those Fresh faces that would thrive
When his man-minded offset rose To chase the deer at five;
"And all that from the town would stroll, Till that wild wind made work In which the gloomy brewer's soul Went by me, like a stork:
"The slight she-slips of loyal blood, And others, passing praise,
Strait-laced, but all-too-full in bud For puritanic stays:
"And I have shadow'd many a group
Of beauties that were born
In teacup-times of hood and hoop, Or while the patch was worn;
"And, leg and arm with love-knots gay, About me leap'd and laugh'd The modish Cupid of the day, And shrill'd his tinsel shaft.
"I swear (and else may insects prick Each leaf into a gall)
This girl, for whom your heart is sick, Is three times worth them all;
"For those and theirs, by Nature's law, Have faded long ago;
But in these latter springs I saw Your own Olivia blow,
"From when she gamboll'd on the greeLs A baby-germ, to when
The maiden blossoms of her teens
Could number five from ten.
"I swear, by leaf, and wind, and rain,
(And hear me with thine ears,)
That, tho' I circle in the grain Five hundred rings of years-
"Yet, since I first could cast a shade, Did never creature pass So slightly, musically made, So light upon the grass:
"For as to fairies, that will flit
To make the greensward fresh,
Nor ever lightning char thy grain, But, rolling as in sleep, Low thunders bring the mellow rain, That makes thee broad and deep!
And hear me swear a solemn oath, That only by thy side
Will I to Olive plight my troth, And gain her for my bride.
And when my marriage morn may fall, She, Dryad-like, shall wear Alternate leaf and acorn-ball
In wreath about her hair.
And I will work in prose and rhyme, And praise thee more in both Than bard has honor'd beech or lime, Or that Thessalian growth,
In which the swarthy ringdoves sat, And mystic sentence spoke: And more than England honors that, Thy famous brother-oak,
Wherein the younger Charles abode Till all the paths were dim,
And far below the Roundhead rode, And humm'd a surly hymn.
Or love that never found his earthly close, What sequel? Streaming eyes and breaking hearts: Or all the same as if he had not been?
Not so. Shall Error in the round of time Still father Truth? O shall the braggart shout For some blind glimpse of freedom work itself Thro' madness, hated by the wise, to law System and empire? Sin itself be found The cloudy porch oft opening on the Sun ? And only he, this wonder, dead, become Mere highway dust! or year by year alone Sit brooding in the ruins of a life, Nightmare of youth, the spectre of himself? If this were thus, if this, indeed, were all, Better the narrow brain, the stony heart, The staring eye glazed o'er with sapless days, The long mechanic pacings to and fro, The set gray life, and apathetic end. But am I not the nobler thro' thy love? O three times less unworthy! likewise thou Art more thro' Love, and greater than thy years. The Sun will run his orbit, and the Moon Her circle. Wait, and Love himself will bring The drooping flower of knowledge changed to frui Of wisdom. Wait: my faith is large in Time, And that which shapes it to some perfect end. Will some one say, then why not ill for good Why took ye not your pastime? To that man My work shall auswer, since I knew the right And did it for a man is not as God, But then most Godlike being most a man.
-So let me think 't is well for thee and meIl-fated that I am, what lot is mine Whose foresight preaches peace, my heart so slow To feel it! For how hard it seem'd to me, When eyes, love-languid thro' half-tears, would dwei One earnest, earnest moment upon mine, Then not to dare to see! when thy low voice, Faltering, would break its syllables, to keep My own full-tuned,-hold passion in a leash, And not leap forth and fall about thy neck, And on thy bosom, (deep-desired relief!) Rain out the heavy mist of tears, that weigh'd Upon my brain, my senses, and my soul !
That float about the threshold of an age,
For Love himself took part against himself To warn us off, and Duty loved of Love-
O this world's curse,-beloved but hated-came Like Death betwixt thy dear embrace and mine, And crying, Who is this? behold thy bride," She push'd me from thee.
If the sense is hard To alien ears, I did not speak to these- No, not to thee, but to myself in thee: Hard is my doom and thine: thou knowest it all. Could Love part thus? was it not well to speak, To have spoken once? It could not but be well. The slow sweet hours that bring us all things good, The slow sad hours that bring us all things ill, And all good things from evil, brought the night In which we sat together and alone, And to the want, that hollow'd all the heart, Gave utterance by the yearning of an eye, That burn'd upon its object thro' such tears As flow but once a life.
The trance gave way To those caresses, when a hundred times In that last kiss, which never was the last, Farewell, like endless welcome, lived and died. Then follow'd counsel, comfort, and the words That make a man feel strong in speaking truth; Till now the dark was worn, and overhead The lights of sunset and of sunrise mix'd In that brief night; the summer night, that paused Among her stars to hear us; stars that hung Love-charm'd to listen: all the wheels of Time Spun round in station, but the end had come.
O then like those, who clench their nerves to rush Upon their dissolution, we two rose, There-closing like an individual life- In one blind cry of passion and of pain, Like bitter accusation ev'n to death, Caught up the whole of love and utter'd it, And bade adieu forever.
Shall sharpest pathos blight us, knowing all Life needs for life is possible to will- Live happy; tend thy flowers; be tended by My blessing! Should my Shadow cross thy thoughts Too sadly for their peace, remand it thou For calmer hours to Memory's darkest hold, If not to be forgotten-not at once-
Not all forgotten. Should it cross thy dreams, O might it come like one that looks content, With quiet eyes unfaithful to the truth, And point thee forward to a distant light, Or seem to lift a burthen from thy heart And leave thee freer, till thou wake refresh'd, Then when the low matin-chirp hath grown Full choir, and morning driv'n her plough of pearl Far furrowing into light the mounded rack, Beyond the fair green field and eastern sea.
Like truths of Science waiting to be caught- Catch me who can, and make the catcher crown'd- Are taken by the forelock. Let it be.
But if you care indeed to listen, hear
These measured words, my work of yestermorn. "We sleep and wake and sleep, but all things
The Sun flies forward to his brother Sun; The dark Earth follows wheel'd in her ellipse; And human things returning on themselves Move onward, leading up the golden year.
"Ah, tho' the times, when some new thought can bud,
Are but as poets' seasons when they flower, Yet seas, that daily gain upon the shore, Have ebb and flow conditioning their march, And slow and sure comes up the golden year. "When wealth no more shall rest in mounded
But smit with freër light shall slowly melt In many streams to fatten lower lands, And light shall spread, and man be liker man Thro' all the season of the golden year.
"Shall eagles not be eagles? wrens be wrens ? If all the world were falcons, what of that? The wonder of the eagle were the less, But he not less the eagle. Happy days Roll onward, leading up the golden year.
"Fly, happy happy sails and bear the Press; Fly, happy with the mission of the Cross; Knit land to land, and blowing havenward With silks, and fruits, and spices, clear of toll, Enrich the markets of the golden year.
"But we grow old. Ah! when shall all men's good
Be each man's rule, and universal Peace Lie like a shaft of light across the land, And like a lane of beams athwart the sea, Thro' all the circle of the golden year?"
Thus far he flowed, and ended; whereupon Ah, folly!" in mimic cadence answer'd James- "Ah, folly! for it lies so far away,
Not in our time, nor in our children's time, "T is like the second world to us that live; 'T were all as one to fix our hopes on Heaven As on this vision of the golden year."
With that he struck his staff against the rocks And broke it,-James,-you know him,-old, but full Of force and choler, and firm upon his feet, And like an oaken stock in winter woods, O'erflourish'd with the hoary clematis: Then added, all in heat:
"What stuff is this! Old writers push'd the happy season back,- The more fools they,-we forward: dreamers both: You most, that in an age, when every hour Must sweat.her sixty minutes to the death, Live on, God love us, as if the seedsman, rapt Upon the teeming harvest, should not dip His hand into the bag: but well I know That unto him who works, and feels he works,
WELL, you shall have that song which Leonard This same grand year is ever at the doors."
It was last summer on a tour in Wales:
Old James was with me: we that day had been Up Snowdon; and I wish'd for Leonard there, And found him in Llamberis: then we crost Between the lakes, and clamber'd half way up The counter side; and that same song of his He told me; for I banter'd him, and swore They said he lived shut up within himself, A tongue-tied Poet in the feverous days, That, setting the how much before the how, Cry, like the daughters of the horse-leech, "Give, Cram us with all," but count not me the herd! To which "They call me what they will," he said: "But I was born too late: the fair new forms,
He spoke; and, high above, I heard them blast The steep slate-quarry, and the great echo flap And buffet round the hills from bluff to bluff.
IT little profits that an idle king,
By this still hearth, among these barren crags, Match'd with an aged wife, I mete and dole Unequal laws unto a savage race, That hoard, and sleep, and feed, and know not me I cannot rest from travel: I will drink Life to the lees: all times I have enjoy'd
Greatly, have suffer'd greatly, both with those That loved me, and alone; on shore, and when Thro' scudding drifts the rainy Hyades Vext the dim sea: I am become a name; For always roaming with a hungry heart Much have I seen and known; cities of men And manners, climates, councils, governments, Myself not least, but honor'd of them all; And drunk delight of battle with my peers, Far on the ringing plains of windy Troy. I am a part of all that I have met;) Yet all experience is an arch wherethro'
In offices of tenderness, and pay
Meet adoration to my household gods, When I am gone. He works his work, I mine. There lies the port: the vessel puffs her sail : There gloom the dark broad seas. My mariners, Souls that have toil'd, and wrought, and thought with me-
That ever with a frolic welcome took The thunder and the sunshine, and opposed Free hearts, free foreheads--you and I are old; Old age hath yet his honor and his toil; Death closes all: but something ere the end,
Gleams that untravell'd world, whose margin fades Some work of noble note, may yet be done, Forever and forever when I move.
How dull it is to pause, to make an end, To rust unburnish'd, not to shine in use!
As tho' to breathe were life. Life piled on life Were all too little, and of one to me Little remains: but every hour is saved From that eternal silence, something more, A bringer of new things; and vile it were For some three suns to store and hoard myself, And this gray spirit yearning in desire To follow knowledge, like a sinking star, Beyond the utmost bound of human thought. This is my son, mine own Telemachus, To whom I leave the sceptre and the isle- Well-loved of me, discerning to fulfil This labor, by slow prudence to make mild A rugged people, and thro' soft degrees Subdue them to the useful and the good. Most blameless is he, centred in the sphere Of common duties, decent not to fail
Not unbecoming men that strove with Gods. The lights begin to twinkle from the rocks: The long day wanes: the slow moon climbs: the deep
Moans round with many voices. Come, my friends, "T is not too late to seek a newer world. Push off, and sitting well in order smite The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths Of all the western stars, until I die. It may be that the gulfs will wash us down: It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles, And see the great Achilles, whom we knew. Tho' much is taken, much abides; and tho' We are not now that strength which in old days Moved earth and heaven; that which we are, we
One equal temper, of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.
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