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who had endeavoured to mend a tolerable consti. tution by taking physic, “ I was well; I wished to be better : here I am ;" may generally be applied with great justness to the distress of disap. pointed avarice and ambition.
" Men,” says an elegant author, " are too of. ten ingenious in making themselves miserable by aggravating to their own fancy, beyond bounds, all the evils which they endure They compare themselves with none but those whom they imagine to be more happy ; and complain that upon them alone has fallen the whole load of human sorrows. “I will restore your daughter again to life,' said an Eastern sage to a prince who grieve ed immoderately for the loss of a beloved child, • provided you are able to engrave on her tomb the names of three persons who have never mourn
ne po ed.' . The prince made enquiry, after such persons, but found the enquiry vain, and was silent.” It is said of Mr.
G h , who though simple, honest, humane, and generous, yet was so peev. ish and splenetic, that he would often leave a party of his convivial friends abruptly, in order to go home and brood over his misfortunes. How different a disposition was that of Mr. Sainuel Medley, the grandfather of the late Mr. Medley, of Liverpool ! This good man was particularly noted for his cheerfulness, and was a pleasing example of remarkable confidence in God, as it re. spected his providential dispensations ; frequently saying, he could never fret five minutes in his. life, let things look ever so dark.
THE DISGUISED AND DISSOLUTE
THE following account, as related by a cler. gyman, may be depended on as a fact.
“ Shortly after the return of the Duke of York from Holland, one of the regiments which had suffered very materially in the different engage. ments was quartered in my parish. A private soldier called upon me one evening after divine service, with a request that I would explain a par. ticular part of my discourse which he had just heard, expressing at the same time much interest in the general subject of it. I found him to be a very well-informed man, of distinguished piety, and much religious knowledge. His language and address betrayed evident marks of strong natural sense, aided by an unusual acquaintance with the word of God, and the operations of his grace upon the heart.
" He frequently called upon me during the con. tinuance of the regiment in my neighbourhood, and every succeeding interview gave me fresh proofs of his religious attainments. At that time he was the only man in the regiment who made any profession of religion, and on that account was ridiculed and despised by the greater part of his companions.
"At length the regiment, having nearly repair. ed by fresh recruits the loss sustained in Holland, was ordered to join a camp, then forming, for the purpose of collecting troops for the Egyptian expedition, under the command of Sir Ralph Abercromby. A few days before their departure, W (for that was his name) brought with
him another private of the same regiment, who had expressed a particular desire to speak with me, but of whom he knew very little, except that in some of the engagements in Holland he had been observed voluntarily to seek danger, and needlessly to hazard his person, as if with a desperate resolution of ridding himself of life. On being introduced to me, alone, the stranger said, that he hoped I should excuse the liberty he had taken of coming to request that I would purchase a small parcel which he had brought, in order to enable him to supply himself with a few necessaries preparatory to his voyage to Egypt, as he had no other means of raising a little money. He was a tall young man, of a dark sun-burned countenance, having something in his aspect, speech, and address, which struck me as being above his present appearance. On opening his parcel, which he did not do without some confusion, it proved to consist of some clergyman's bands, one or two religious books, and some manuscript sermons. • Sir,' said he, you will hear with surprise, and I cannot mention it without some uneasiness, what I have for a long time concealed from every one around me, that I am in reality a brother clergyman, though now disguised in the habit of a common soldier. My father is a clergyman in Wales: he educated me himself for the church, and procured me ordination, with a title to a curacy at
~ , in the country of W- i my name is E-M I continued upon that cure three years, during which time, I am sorry to say, through much imprudence and inattention to the decorum which suited my character, I contracted several debts, which I had neither the means nor the
of ently and was lately be truth of
prospect of paying. Fearing disgrace and impris sonment, and knowing my father's inability to as. sist me, I quitted the town, and formed the reso. lution of enlisting as a soldier, which I shortly af. terwards did, and was soon sent on the expedition to Holland, whence I lately returned. That you may have no doubts as to the truth of my story, which may possibly induce you to sympathize with a brother clergyman in distress, I will shew you several letters and papers, which, when you have read, I trust you will give me credit for the truth of my relation.' He also wrote some sen. tences in my presence which proved his hand. writing to be the same with that of the manuscript sermons he had requested me to purchase. On examining the letters (some of which were from his father, expostulating with him on his extrava, gance,) and putting a variety of questions to him, I felt fully satisfied as to the truth of his story.
“ I was greatly concerned at what he had rela. ted, and began to enter into a close and friendly expostulation with him on the inconsistency of his present situation with the sacred profession to which he was bound by ties the most indissoluble. I urged the duty of his endeavouring to return, if possible, to the discharge of bis ministe. rial duties, with a mind influenced and improved by the experience of past hardships and misfortunes. As he did not appear disposed to follow this advice, I brought forward, with much earnestness, every argument which scripture or reason suggested to my mind on the subject, and begged that he would permit me to endeavour to procure his discharge from the army, by a representation of his case to the Duke of York, AL
pissed; he talked arance of remit of my co
though he spoke to me with much civility, and thanked me for my advice and the offer I had made, yet I was sorry to perceive a great reluctance on his part to ayail himself of my counsel, and but little appearance of remorse for what had passed; he talked like a man weary of the world, who had no desire to continue in it, and no hope of sustaining a respectable character in it: it was plain that no impression of a religious nature was made on his mind. The peculiarity of his sitnation, and the occasion of his coming, led him at the same time to pay attention to what I said. I entered into a long conversation with him on the nature and design of christianity in general, as well as of the pastoral office in particular; exam. ined him as to his views of the doctrines of the gospel, and explained my own to him very fully. I entreated him to take what I had said to him in good part, and urged him by every sacred consi. deration to act the part which it appeared to me his duty and interest to adopt. He said but little in reply, and almost declined saying any more. I therefore purchased his little parcel, gave him a couple of books, and dismissed him with a bless. ing, once more entreating him to lay to heart what I had said. In two days the regiment went away; nor did I see either
W o r Mr. E before their departure.
" A circumstance of so singular a nature frequently occupied my thoughts afterwards; and whenever I wore the bands which I had purchased from Mr. E , I felt an increased interest in his behalf. From that time, till the return of our troops from Egypt, I had no opportunity of hearing any thing respecting him, except that a cler.
gospel, and him to taken by every sacred to me