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the vicious forsake thee, there is yet one in the world that will never forsake thee; though thou hast ten thousand crimes to answer for, he will forget them.

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„O my own dear," for minutes she could say no more,,,my own dearest good papa! Could angels be kinder! How do I deserve so much? The villain, I hate him and myself to be a reproach to so much goodness. You can't forgive me. I know you cannot." Yes my child, from my heart I do forgive thee. Only repent, and we both shall be happy. We shall see many pleasant days yet, my Olivia" „Ah! never, Sir, never. The rest of my wretched life must be infamy abroad, and shame at home. But alas! papa, you look much paler than you used to do. Could such a thing as I am give you so much uncasiness? Sure you have too much wisdom to take the miseries of my guilt upon yourself."-,,Our wisdom, young woman," replied I.,,Ah, why so cold a name, papa?" cried she. ,,This is the first time you ever called me by so cold a name.",,I ask pardon, my darling," returned I;,,but I was going to observe, that wisdom makes but a slow defence against trouble, though at last a sure one,"

The landlady now returned to know if we did not chuse a more genteel apartment; to which assenting, we were shewn to a room where we could converse more freely. After we had talked ourselves into some degree of tranquility, I could not avoid desiring some account of the gradations that led to her present wretched situation.,,That villain, Sir," said she, ,,from the first day of our meeting, made me honourable, though private proposals."

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„Villain, indeed," cried I;,,and yet it in some measure surprises me, how a person of Mr. Burchell's good sense, and seeming honour, could be guilty of

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such deliberate baseness, and thus step into a family to undo it."

,,My dear papa," returned my daughter,,,you labour under a strange mistake. Mr. Burchell never attempted to deceive me. Instead of that, he took every opportunity of privately admonishing me against the artifices of Mr. Thornhill, who, I now find, was even worse than he reprensented him.",,Mr.Thornhill!" interrupted I,,,can it be?"-,,Yes, Sir," returned she,,, it was Mr. Thornhill who seduced me, who employed the two ladies, as he called them, but who in fact were abandoned women of the town, without breeding or pity, to decoy us up to London. Their artifices, you may remember, would have certainly succeeded, but for Mr. Burchell's letter, who directed those reproaches at them, which were all applied to ourselves. How he came to have so much influence as to defeat their intentions, still remains a secret to me; but I am convinced he was ever our warmest, sincerest friend."

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,You amaze me, my dear," cried I, but now I find my first suspicions of Mr. Thornhill's baseness were too well grounded: but he can triumph in security; for he is rich, and we are poor. But tell me, my child; sure it was no small temptation that could thus obliterate all the impressions of such an education, and so virtuous a disposition as thine ?«

,,Indeed, Sir," replied she, he owes all his triumph to the desire I had of making him, and not myself, happy. I knew that the ceremony of our A marriage, which was privately performed by a popish priest, was no way binding, and that I had nothing to trust to but his honour.",,What," interrupted I, ,,and were you indeed married by a priest in orders?",,Indeed, Sir, we were," replied she,,,though we were both sworn to conceal his name."- ,,Why

then, my child, come to my arms again; and now you are a thousand times more welcome than before: for you are now his wife to all intents and purposes; nor can all the laws of man, though written upon tables of adamant, lessen the force of that sacred connection."

,,Alas, papa," replied she,,,you are but little acquainted with his villanies: he has been married already, by the same priest, to six or eight wives more, whom, like me, he has deceived and abandoned.“

,,Has he so!" cried I,,,then we must hang the priest, and you shall inform against him to-morrow."But, Sir," returned she,,,will that be right, when I am sworn to secrecy?,,My dear,“ I replied,,,if you have made such a promise, I cannot, nor will I tempt you to break it. Even though it may benefit the public, you must not inform against him. In all human institutions, a smaller evil is allowed to procure a greater good; as in politics, a province may be given away to secure a kingdom; inmedicine, a limb may me lopt off, to preserve the body. But in religion, the law is written, and inflexibly, never to do evil. And this law, my child, is right; for other wise, if we commit a smaller evil to procure a greater good, certain guilt would be thus incurred, in expectation of contingent advantage. And though the advantage should certainly follow, yet the interval between commission and advantage, which is allowed to be guilty, may be that in which we are called away to answer for the things we have done, and the volume of human actions is closed for ever. But I interrupt you, my dear; go on."

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The very next morning," continued she, „I found what little expectation I was to have from his sincerity. That very morning he introduced me to two unhappy women more, whom, like me, he had

deceived, but who lived in contented prostitution. I loved him too tenderly to bear such rivals in his affections, and strove to forget my infamy in a tumult of pleasure. Whith this view, I danced, dressed, and talked; but still was unhappy. The gentlemen who visited there told me every moment of the power of my charms, and this only contributed to increase my melancholy, as I had thrown all their power quite away. Thus each day I grew more pensive, and the more insolent, till at last the monster had the assurance to offer me to a young baronet of his acquaintance. Need I describe, Sir, how his ingratitude stung me? My answer to this proposal was almost madness, I desired to part. As I was going, he offered me a purse; but I flung it at him with indignation, and burst from him in a rage that for a while kept me insensible of the miseries of my situation.

But I soon looked round me, and saw myself a vile, abject, guilty thing, without one friend in the world to apply to. Just in that interval, a stage-coach happening to pass by; I took a place, it being my only aim to be driven at a distance from a wretch I despised and detested. I was set down here; where, since my arrival, my own anxiety, and this woman's unkindness, have been my only companions. The hours of pleasure that I have passed with my mamma and sister now grow painful to me: their sorrows are much; but mine are greater than theirs; for mine are mixed with guilt and infamy."

,,Have patience, my child, cried I,,,and I hope things will yet be better. Take some repose tonight, and to-morrow. I'll carry you home to your mother and the rest of the family, from whom you will receive a kind reception. Poor woman! this has gone to her heart: but she loves you still, Oli via, and will forget it."

CHAT. XXII.

Offences are easily pardoned where there is Love at bottom.

The next morning I took my daughter behind me, and set out on my return home. As we travelled along, I strove, by every persuasion, to calm her sorrows and fears, and to arm her with resolution to bear the presence of her offended mother. I took every opportunity, from the prospect of a fine country, through which we passed, to observe how much kinder Heaven was to us, than we to each other; and that the nrisfortunes of Nature's making were but very few. I assured her, that she should never perceive any change in my affections, and that during my life, which yet might be long, she might depend upon a guardian and an instructor.. I armed her against the censures of the world, shewed her that books were sweet unreproaching companions to the miserable, and that if they could not bring us to enjoy life, they would at least teach us to endure it.

The hired horse that we rode was to be put up that night at an inn by the way, within about five-miles from my house; and as I was willing to prepare my family for my daughter's reception, I determined to leave her that night at the inn, and to return for her, accompanied by my daughter Sophia early the next morning. It was night before we reached our appointed stage: however, after seeing her provided with a decent apartment, and having ordered our kostess to prepare proper refreshments, I kissed her, and proceeded towards home. And now my heart caught new sensations of pleasure, the nearer I ap. proached that peaceful mansion. As a bird that had been frighted from its nest, my affections out-went my haste, and hovered round my little fire-side with all the rapture of expectation. I called up the many

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