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united extraordinary power of intelligence, | This was said with an air of simplicity and extraordinary force of character, and extraor- sincerity which might have made even Socdinary strength of affection; and all these under the control of a deep religious feeling This is what makes her so remarkable, so interesting. I shall try and make her speak for herself, that she may show us the characteristic sides of her rare nature with her own inimitable touch.

It must be remembered that her journal is written for Maurice only; in her lifetime no eye but his ever saw it. "Ceci n'est pas pour le public," she writes; "c'est de l'intime, c'est de l'âme, c'est pour un." "This is not for the public; it contains my inmost thoughts, my very soul; it is for one." And Maurice, this one, was a kind of second self to her. "We see things with the same eyes; what you find beautiful, I find beautiful; God has made our souls of one piece." And this genuine confidence in her brother's sympathy gives to the entries in her journal a naturalness and simple freedom rare in such compositions. She felt that he would understand her, and be interested in all that she wrote. One of the first pages of her journal relates an incident of the home-life of Le Cayla, the smallest detail of which Maurice liked to hear; and in relating it she brings this simple life before us. She is writing in November, 1834:

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rates take it as a compliment; but it made
chist was gone for that evening. A day or
me laugh so much that my gravity as cate-
two ago Pierrel left us, to his great sorrow:
his time with us was up on Saint Brice's day.
Now he goes about with his little dog, truf-
fle hunting. If he comes this
I shall go
way
and ask him if he still thinks I look like a

philosopher.”

Her good sense and spirit made her discharge with alacrity her household tasks in this patriarchal life of Le Cayla, and treat them as the most natural thing in the world. She sometimes complains, to be sure, of burning her fingers at the kitchen fire. But when a literary friend of her brother expresses enthusiasm about her and her poetical nature:

The poetess," she says, "whom this gentleman believes me to be, is an ideal being, infinitely removed from the life which is actually mine-a life of occupations, a life of household business, which takes up all my time. How could I make it otherwise? I am sure I do not know; and, besides, my duty is in this sort of life, and I have no wish to escape from it."

Among these occupations of the patriarchal fe of the châtelaine of Le Cayla intercourse with the poor fills a prominent place :

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"I am furious with the gray cat. The mischievous beast has made away with a litTo-day," she writes on the 9th of Detle half-frozen pigeon, which I was trying to cember, 1834, "I have been warming myself thaw by the side of the fire. The poor little at every fireside in the village. It is a round thing was just beginning to come round: I which Mimi and I often make, and in which meant to tame him; he would have grown sick people, and holding forth on doses and I take pleasure. To-day we have been seeing fond of me; and there is my whole scheme Take this, do that; eaten up by a cat! This event, and all the rest of to-day's history, has passed in the and they attend to us just as if we were the kitchen. Here I take up my abode all the doctor. We prescribed shoes for a little morning and a part of the evening, ever since I am without Mimi.* I have to superintend the cook; sometimes papa comes down and I read to him by the oven, or by the fireside, some bits out of the Antiquities of the AngloSaxon Church. This book struck Pierril† with astonishment. Que de mouts aqui dédins! What a lot of words there are inside it!' This boy is a real original. One evening he asked me if the soul was immortal; then afterwards, what a philosopher was? She had books, too; not in abundance, not We had got upon great questions, as you for the fancying them: the list of her library When I told him that a philosopher is small, and it is enlarged slowly and with was a person who was wise and learned: ‘Then, mademoiselle, you are a philosopher.' difficulty. The Letters of Saint Theresa, which she had long wished to get, she sees in the hands of a poor servant girl, before

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*The familiar name of her sister Marie. A servant boy at Le Cayla.

thing who was amiss from having gone barefoot; to the brother, who, with a bad headache, was lying quite flat, we prescribed a afraid it will hardly cure him. He is at the pillow; the pillow did him good, but I am beginning of a bad feverish cold, and these poor people live in the filth of their hovels like animals in their stable; the bad air poisons them. When I come home to Le Cayla I seem to be in a palace.”

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she can procure them for herself. "What allowed to occupy itself with great matters then?" is her comment: " very likely she until it occupies itself with them in Heaven." makes a better use of them than I could." And again :But she has the Imitation, the Spiritual Works of Bossuet and Fénélon, the Lives of the My journal has been untouched for a long Saints, Corneille, Racine, André, Chenier, because the time seems to me misspent which while. Do you want to know why? It is and Lamartine; Madame de Staël's book on I spend in writing it. We owe God an acGermany, and French translations of Shak-count of every minute; and is it not a wrong speare's plays, Ossian, the Vicar of Wake- use of our minutes to employ them in writing field, Scott's Old Mortality and Red Gauntlet, a history of our transitory days?"

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"It is from the Cross that those thoughts come which unspeakably tender. None of them come friend finds so soothing, so from me. I feel my own aridity; but I feel, too, that God, when he will, can make an ocean flow upon this bed of sand. It is the same with so many simple souls, from which proceed the most admirable things; because they are in direct relation with God, without false science and without pride. And thus I am gradually losing my taste for books; I say to myself, What can they teach me which I shall not one day know in Heaven? let God be my master and my study here!' I try to make him so, and I find myself the better for it. I read little; I go out little; I plunge the sayings, doings, feelings, events of that myself in the inward life. How infinite are life! Oh, if you could but see them! But what avails it to make them known? God alone should be admitted to the sanctuary of the soul."

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and the Promessi Sposi of Manzoni. Above She overcomes her scruples, and goes on all, she has her own mind; her meditations writing the journal; but again and again in the lonely fields, on the oak-grown hill- they return to her. Her brother tells her side of "The Seven Springs; "her medita- of the pleasure and comfort something she tions and writing in her own room, her has written gives to a friend of his in afflicchambrette, her délicieux chez moi, where every tion. She answers :— night, before she goes to bed, she opens the window to look out upon the sky-the balmy moonlit sky of Languedoc. This life of reading, thinking, and writing, was the life she liked best, the life that most truly suited her. "I find writing has become almost a necessity to me. Whence does it arise, this impulse to give utterance to the voice of one's spirit, to pour out my thoughts before God and one human being? I say one human being, because I always imagine that you are present, that you see what I write. In the stillness of a life like this my spirit is happy, and, as it were, dead to all that goes on upstairs or down-stairs, in the house or out of the house. But this does not last long. Come, my poor spirit,' I then say to myself, 6 we must go back to the things of this world.' And I take my spinning, or a book, or a saucepan, or I play with Wolf or Trilby. Such a life as this I call heaven upon earth." Tastes like these, joined with a talent like Mdlle. de Guérin's, naturally inspire thoughts of literary composition. Such thoughts she had, and perhaps she would have been happier if she had followed them; but she never could satisfy herself that to follow them was quite consistent with the religious life, and her projects of composition were gradually relinquished.

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Beautifully as she says all this, one cannot, think, read it without a sense of disquietude, without a presentiment that this ardent spirit is forcing itself from its natural bent, that the beatitude of the true mystic will never be its earthly portion. And yet how simple and charming is her picture of the life of religion which she chose as her ark of refuge, and in which she desired to place all her happiness;

"Would to God that my thoughts, my "Cloaks, clogs, umbrellas, all the apparaspirit, had never taken their flight beyond tus of winter, went with us this morning to the narrow round in which it is my lot to Andillac, where we have passed the whole live. In spite of all that people say to the day; some of it at the cure's house, the rest contrary, I feel that I cannot go beyond my in church. How I like this life of a country needlework and my spinning without going Sunday, with its activity, its journeys to too far I feel it, I believe it: well, then, I church, its liveliness! You find all your will keep in my proper sphere; however neighbors on the road; you have a courtsey much I am tempted, my spirit shall not be from every woman you

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you go along, such a talk about the poultry, the sheep and cows, and the good man and the children! My great delight is to give a kiss to these children, and to see them run away and hide their blushing faces in their mother's gown. They are alarmed at las doumaïsélos, as at a being of another world. One of these little things said the other day to its grandmother, who was talking of coming to see us: Minino, you mustn't go to that castle; there is a black hole there. What is the reason that in all ages the noble's château has been an object of terror? Is it because of the horrors that were committed there in old times? I suppose so. This vague horror of the château, still lingering in the mind of the French peasant fifty years after he has stormed it, is indeed curious, and is one of the thousand indications how unlike aristocracy on the Continent has been to aristocracy in England. But this is one of the great matters with which Mdlle. de Guérin would not have us occupied; let us pass to the subject of Christmas in Languedoc :

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"Christmas is come; the beautiful festival, the one I love most, and which gives me the same joy as it gave the shepherds of Bethlehem. In real truth, one's whole soul sings with joy at this beautiful coming of God upon earth,-a coming which here is announced on all sides of us by music and by our charming nadalet. Nothing at Paris can give you a notion of what Christmas is with us. You have not even the midnight mass. We all of us went to it, papa at our head, on the most perfect night possible. Never was there a finer sky than ours was that midnight, so fine that papa kept perpetually throwing back the hood of his cloak, that he might look up at the sky. The ground was white with hoar-frost, but we were not cold; besides, the air, as we met it, was warmed by the bundles of blazing torchwood which our servants carried in front of us to light us on our way. It was delightful, I do assure you; and I should like you to have seen us there on our road to church, in those lanes with the bushes along their banks, as white as if they were in flower. The hoar

The religious life is at bottom everywhere alike; but it is curious to note the variousness of its setting and outward circumstance. Catholicism has these so different from Protestantism! and in Catholicism these accessories have, it cannot be denied, a nobleness and amplitude which in Protestantism is often wanting to them. In Catholicism they have, from the antiquity of this form of religion, from its pretensions to universality, from its really wide-spread prevalence, from its sensuousness, something European, august, and imaginative in Protestantism they often have, from its inferiority in all these respects, something provincial, mean and prosaic. In revenge, Protestantism has a future before it, a prospect of growth in alliance with the vital movement of modern society; while Catholicism appears to be bent on widening the breach betwen itself and the modern spirit, to be fatally losing itself in the multiplication of dogmas, Mariolatry, and miracle-mongering. But the style and circumstance of actual Catholicism is grander than its present tendency, and the style and circumstance of Protestantism is meaner than its tendency. While I was reading the journal of Mdlle. de Guérin, there came into my hands the memoir and poems of a and one could not but be struck with the sinyoung Englishwoman, Miss Emma Tatham; gular contrast which the two lives in their setting rather than in their inherent quality, present. Miss Tatham had not, certainly, Mdlle. de Guérin's talent, but she had a sincere vein of poetic feeling, a genuine aptitude for composition. Both were fervent Christians, and so far, the two lives have a real resemblance; but in the setting of them, what a difference! The Frenchwoman is a Catholic in Languedoc; the Englishwoman is a Protestant at Margate-Margate, that brick-and-mortar image of English Protestantism, representing it in all its prose, all its uncomeliness,-let me add, all its salu

frost makes the most lovely flowers. We brity. Between the external form and fashsaw a long spray so beautiful that we wanted ion of these two lives, between the Catholic to take it with us as a garland for the communion table, but it melted in our hands: all flowers fade so soon! I was very sorry about my garland; it was mournful to see it drip away and get smaller and smaller every

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A peculiar peal rung at Christmas-time by the

church-bells of Languedoc.

Mdlle. de Guérin's nadalet at the Languedoc Christmas-her chapel of moss at Eastertime-her daily reading of the life of a saint, carrying her to the most diverse times, places, and peoples-her quoting, when she wants to fix her mind upon the staunchness which the religious aspirant needs, the words of

Saint Macedonius to a hunter whom he met

in the mountains, "I pursue after God, as you pursue after game "—her quoting, when she wants to break a village girl of disobedience to her mother, the story of the ten disobedient children whom at Hippo St. Augustine saw palsied;-between all this and the bare, blank, narrowly English setting of Miss Tatham's Protestantism, her" union in Church-fellowship with the worshippers at Hawley-Square Chapel, Margate; her "singing with soft, sweet voice, the animating lines

'My Jesus to know, and feel his blood flow, 'Tis life everlasting, 'tis heaven below ;' her “young female teachers belonging to the Sunday school," and her "Mr. Thomas Rowe, a venerable class-leader," what a dissimilarity! In the ground of the two lives, a likeness; in all their circumstance, what unlikeness! An unlikeness, it will be said, is that which is non-essential and indifferent. Non-essential-yes; indifferent

no.

The signal want of grace and charm in English Protestantism's setting of its religious life is not an indifferent matter; it is a real weakness. This ought ye to have done, and not to have left the other undone.

I have said that the present tendency of Catholicism-the Catholicism of the main body of the Catholic clergy and laity-seems likely to exaggerate rather than to remove all that in this form of religion is most repugnant to reason; but this Catholicism was not that of Mdlle. de Guérin. The insufficiency of her Catholicism comes from a doctrine which Protestantism, too, has adopted, although Protestantism, from its inherent element of freedom, may find it easier to escape from it; a doctrine with a certain attraction for all noble natures, but, in the modern world at any rate, incurably sterile, the doctrine of the emptiness and nothingness of human life, of the superiority of renouncement to activity, of quietism to doctrine which makes effort for things on this side of the grave a folly, and joy in things on this side of the grave a sin. But her Catholicism is remarkably free from the faults which Protestants commonly think inseperable from Catholicism; the relation to the priest, the practice of confession, assume, when she speaks of them, an aspect which is not that under which Exeter Hall knows

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ber of those who prefer regarding that by which men and nations die to regarding that by which they live-one is glad to study. "La confession," she says twice in her journal," n'est qu'une expansion du repentir dans l'amour:" and her weekly journey to the confessional in the little church of Cahuzao is her "cher pélerinage; "the little church is the place where she has "laissé tant de misères :

"This morning,' "she writes one 28th of November, "I was up before daylight, dressed quickly, said my prayers, and started with Marie for Cahuzac. When we got there the chapel was occupied, which I was not sorry for. I like not to be hurried, and to have time, before I go in, to lay bare my whole soul before God. This often takes me a long time, because my thoughts are apt to be flying about like these autumn leaves. At ten o'clock I was on my knees, listening to words the most salutary that were ever spoken; and I went away feeling myself a better being. Every burden thrown off leaves us with a laid down the load of its sins at God's feet, sense of brightness; and when the soul has it feels as if it had wings. What an admirable thing is confession! What comfort, what light, what strength is given me every time after I have said, I have sinned."

This blessing of confession is the greater, she says, "the more the heart of the priest to whom we confide our repentance is like that divine heart which has so loved us.' This is what attaches me to M. Bories." M. Bories was the curé of her parish, a man no longer young, and of whose loss, when he was about to leave them, she thus speaks :—

"What a grief for me! how much I lose in losing this faithful guide of my conscience, heart, and mind, of my whole self which God had appointed to be in his charge, and which let itself be in his charge so gladly! He knew the resolves which God had put in my heart, and I had need of his help to follow them. Our new curé cannot supply his place: he is so young! and then he seems so inexperienced, so undecided! It needs firmness to pluck a soul out of the midst of the world,. and to uphold it against the assaults of flesh. and blood. It is Saturday, my day for going to Cahuzac; I am just going there, perhaps I shall come back more tranquil. God has always given me some good thing there, in that chapel, where I have left behind me so many miseries."

Such is confession for her when the priest them, but which—unless one is of the num- is worthy; and, when he is not worthy, she

knows how to separate the man from the of- | child, a good citizen, a good brother or sis

fice:

"To-day I am going to do something which I dislike; but I will do it, with God's help. Do not think I am on my way to the stake; it in only that I am going to confess to a priest in whom I have not confidence, but who is the only one here. In this act of religion, the man must always be separated from the priest, and sometimes the man must be annihilated."

The same clear sense, the same freedom from superstition, shows itself in all her religious life. She tells us, to be sure, how ones, when she was a little girl, she stained a new frock, and on praying, in her alarm, to an image of the Virgin which hung in her room, saw the stains vanish: even the austerest Protestant will not judge such Mariolatry as this very harshly. But, in general, the Virgin Mary fills, in the religious parts of her journal, no prominent place; it is Jesus, not Mary. "Oh, how well has Jesus said: Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden.' It is only there, only in the bosom of God, that we can rightly weep, rightly rid ourselves of our burden." And again: "The mystery of suffering makes one grasp the belief of something to be expiated, something to be won. I see it in Jesus Christ, the Man of Sorrow. It was necessary that the Son of Man should suffer. That is all we know in the troubles and calamities of life."

And who has ever spoken of justification more impressively and piously than Mdlle. de Guérin speaks of it, when, after reckoning the number of minutes she has lived, she exclaims:

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My God, what have we done with all these minutes of ours, which thou, too, wilt one day reckon? Will there be any of them to count for eternal life? will there be many

ter, is not enough to procure entrance into the kingdom of heaven. God demands other things besides these kindly social virtues, of him whom he means to crown with an eternity of glory."

And, with this zeal for the spirit and power of religion, what prudence in her counsels of religious practice; what discernment, what measure! She has been speaking of the charm of the Lives of the Saints, and she goes on :

"Notwithstanding this, the Lives of the Saints seem to me, for a great many people, dangerous reading. I would not recommend them to a young girl, or even to some women who are no longer young. What one reads these, even in seeking God, sometimes go has such power upon one's feelings; and astray. Alas, we have seen it in poor C.'s case. What care one ought to take with a young person; with what she reads, what she writes, her society, her prayers, all of them matters which demand a mother's tender watchfulness! I remember many things did at fourteen, which my mother, had she lived, would not have let me do. I would have done anything for God's sake; I would have cast myself into an oven, and assuredly things like that are not God's will: he is not pleased by the hurt one does to one's health through that ardent but ill-regulated piety which, while it impairs the body, often leaves many a fault flourishing. And, therefore, Saint François de Sales used to say to the nuns who asked his leave to go barefoot: Change your brains, and keep your shoes.'"'

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Meanwhile Maurice, in a five years' absence, and amid the distractions of Paris, lost, or seemed to his sister to lose, something of his fondness for his home and its inmates; he certainly lost his early religious habits and feelings. It is on this latter loss that Mdlle. de Guérin's journal oftenest touches, with infinite delicacy, but with infinite anguish

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of them? will there be one of them? If thou, O Lord, wilt be extreme to mark what "Oh! the agony of being in fear for a is done amiss, O Lord, who may abide it?' soul's salvation, who can describe it! That This close scrutiny of our time may well make which caused our Saviour the keenest sufferus tremble, all of us who have advanced more ing, in the agony of his Passion, was not so than a few steps in life; for God will judge much the thought of the torments he was to us otherwise than as he judges the lilies of endure, as the thought that these torments the field. I have never been able to under- would be of no avail for a multitude of sinstand the security of those who place their ners; for all those who set themselves against whole reliance, in presenting themselves be- their redemption, or who do not care for it. fore God, upon a good conduct in the ordi- The mere anticipation of this obstinacy and nary relations of human life. As if all our heedlessness had power to make sorrowful, duties were confined within the narrow sphere even unto death, the Son of Man. of this world! To be a good parent, a good | feeling all Christian souls, according to the

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