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Let us pray for in producing. The more activity one another, dearest friend, and and force at the moment, the less counsel each other as we journey will be felt the secret, and increas- together onward towards the reing retardation of the streams of gions of eternal day.' life; and the very exertions and

Dec. 29.- What weather ! feelings which give life at the might naturally be the first allumoment, deceive the patient and sion, but all weather would be his friends, and lay only a surer pretty much alike to me, who am train for debility and death.' the largest part of twenty-four

While suffering under this com- hours in bed. Alas! even my inplaint, Mr. P. writes –

dolence, increased of late, is beDec. 7, 1836.— I am indeed' ginning to grow weary of this restrangely idle,-or more correctly, pose, if such it may be called. [ as usual, indolent and indulgent. feel, not only as if I could do True, my strength fails, and under nothing in my work, but never the prescribed regimen and appli- should any more; and it is a trycations, may be expected stilling thought. But I am mercifully more to diminish for the present; kept from impatience and overbut, blessed be the Lord ! I am much carefulness. The Master no longer alone, and not depressed can and will do what shall most in mind under physical debility glorify himself and advance his and ailment, as I have been in past cause; and what else ought we to less happy circumstances. I feel think about? He has given me indeed daily more and more,

not comfort in my present unwellness, only the real blessing of a com- that I have not had before-not panion ; but emphatically of that the least-a tender sympathizing, one, whom, after so many years of unwearying nurse ; such as could acquaintance and suspension, He rarely be found. She is indeed a has graciously vouchsafed me for blessing, and I trust, will prove the remnant, I trust, of the earthly still more so when, or if, I am pilgrimage. It is well, nay highly permitted to get abroad again needful, that with such a gift there amongst my scattered and heedless should be an attendant little cross, people--Pray for us!... Do not to remind an unheavenly heart that deem me worse than I am: a good its rest is not here. And I would appetite, enough sleep, and no believe that otherwise, the very pain, is not a gloomy bulletin. trial appointed me is precisely what Extreme exhaustion and some disis calculated and intended to profit tress, is almost all I have to menspiritually a slow and dull pupil tion; and this how good for one in the school of the Lord Jesus who bas so much to learn ! What Christ. Oh how much easier is it a catalogue of distinct points and to preach against pride, than to lie lessons in self-knowledge and selflow at his feet, and to protest subjugation already revealed, could against worldliness, than to get the I send you ! But it is one thing world effectually eradicated from to see and even feel, and another the affections ! When shall we to correct, and abandon the soul find every creature drawing us to faithfully and eagerly to the Spirit God,- the soul seeking, and satis- for renewal and healing.' fied with Him alone ? Every fresh It was not until the 15th of bestowment of His goodness and January, 1837, that necessity comliberality tends to disclose still pelled Mr. P. to accept assistance, more plainly and affectingly our and resign his ministerial duties. alienation from Himself and indis- During the services of the precedposition to return to our only cen- ing Sunday (January 8th) he had suffered so visibly from the ex- excitement, would bring on a return haustion of his frame under their of the dreadful sickness. By deperformance, that some of his grees, however, we fell into a little parishioners had kindly urged him conversation. He first remarked to omit the sermon; but such was on the unexpected nature of his his unmoved determination to attack ; but added, “ However, it

spend and be spent” in his Mas- is better to be laid on the shelf, ter's service, that he would not than to lay one's self there.” On comply with their earnest entreaty. my observing that he rested on the That night he was much fatigued ; promises, he replied deliberately, and was confined partially to his Not on the promises only, but on bed, until the following Wednes- the whole character of God. Those day, when to the surprise of his attributes which were once so full tender and affectionate wife, he of terror, are now my comfort and declared his purpose of driving her repose-the holiness, justice, purity a distance of five miles to pay a of God.' He said, I have no visit of congratulation to a beloved wish but for more more patience; parent, on the return of a birth- and with much emotion he added, day.

particularly addressing one whom On returning to his home, our he knew to be intimately acquaintdear friend seemed, from the in- ed with those mental sufferings, crease in the cough, and shortness under which his soul had so long of breathing, to have taken cold : writhed - The clouds are all gone but whether this had been the case, - it is now perfect peace, not joy or whether the sudden aggravation or triumph, that might be fallaof the symptoms was produced cious, but peace, perfect peace !' only by the unexpectedly rapid After solemnly commending him progress of disease, it is vain to

in prayer, to the mercy and love inquire. We know only the suf- of a reconciled Father in Christ fering which ensued, and the fatal Jesus, we embraced and parted; result.

and through a sudden attack of the “On Saturday January 14th, prevailing epidemic, I was presays Mr. Hoare, I went over to vented ever meeting again in this West Hoathley to take the world of sin and sorrow, with one duty on the following day. I who had been to me as

a brother found Mr. Paterson in a state beloved." of weakness and suffering, for On the following Saturday, once which I was little prepared. I or twice a few moments of mental perceived at once the impossibility, wandering marked the increased bumanly speaking, of his ever debility of the dear sufferer; but rallying from such a prostration of each time he was conscious of the strength; an opinion confirmed by circumstance, and named it with bis medical attendant. During the regret. Once he spoke as if emSunday I could see but little of ployed for his parish; at another him; and that short time was time of a Missionary Report; but chiefly occupied in devising means these very wanderings only more for his immediate bodily relief. clearly marked the one subject On the Monday, violent and al- that filled his soul. There only most incessant sickness came on.

ever at home. The last At length he was so far relieved as portion of Scripture he had been to admit us. On our first entering studying was Heb. xi.; he had his room, where he was lying in proceeded as far as the 16th verse, his bed supported by pillows, he which had been read to him on the requested we would not speak, as Wednesday, and it was probably he feared the slightest effort or in reference to this very verse, OCTOBER 1838.

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which had comfortably rested on an entrance (can we doubt it ?) was his mind, that he exclaimed, when ministered to him abundantly, into his eyesight was beginning to fail, the glorious kingdom of our Lord “ Light, light! it is all light! and Saviour Jesus Christ. Oh, that city!”

Thus on Sunday, January 22d, In the latter part of this day, he 1837, departed in faith from this saw, for the last time, such of the world of care and sin, at the early family of his beloved partner as age of thirty-six, our beloved and were then in the house; some of revered friend, Charles John Paterthem being always at hand to aid son. Very justly of him it might in every kind and affectionate have been said, “This world was attention to their suffering relative. not a world to him,' except only He sent several messages to those as a stage of trial--a path of pain who were absent; and also to and labour, to a sure and everlastother friends, exhorting them to ing home. To himself it was not an cleave close to God;' to be faith- early removal. He long bore to ful in the care of their soul, and to Christ a faithful testimony in an act for the glory of God.

erring generation, and had early This evening his speech became obtained a meetness for the inherimuch affected, and the closing tance of the saints in light. scene seemed approaching. At May we be indeed “ followers twelve o'clock he fell into a pro- of them who through faith and found sleep. The bitterness of

bitterness of patience” have at length inherited death had passed, and he awoke these promises, which are beyond at half-past four in the morning, all power of change! And God only for a few seconds, when he grant, that in following their faith, desired to be raised; but in the we may profitably and gratefully attempt to comply with this re- « remember the end of their conquest his spirit was released with- versation, Jesus Christ, the same out a sigh. The conflict was over ; yesterday, to-day, and for ever!” his warfare was accomplished ; and

COMFORT TO THOSE WHO MOURN. The following lines suggested by Burns' solemn dirge, entitled, Man was made to mourn,

appear in a recent number of the Episcopal Recorder, published at Philadelphia. Oh, yes! there is a recompence.

The wretch, who, with the weight of years To comfort those who mourn :

And sorrows, is opprest-
To hush the sigh-and dry the tear, May long for death to dry her tears,
Of care and sorrow born:

And give the wish'd-for rest;
A recompense by heaven designed

But tho' he then no more endures To cheer the weary lot

His proud oppressor's scornOf those, whom sadness prompts to fear, Death cannot heal the wounds of those Their grief by heaven forgot !

Who, broken-hearted, mourn ! Yet deern not lightly of its worth

The rest that's prized by all mankind If they who tempest driven,

But which so few obtainDirect their earnest gaze for rest

If sought elsewhere than heaven designed, To every port but heaven !

Must still be sought in vain ! If they whose hearts the world hath pierc'd, And he whom blasted hopes have made Of every comfort shorn;

Sad, weary, and forlornNe'er gain the long-sought recompense

Finds in this unavailing search,
The stay of those who mourn !

Another cause to mourn.
Not earth, nor all her boasted stores, O, ye! whose weary souls have seen
Contains the wish'd-for prize;

The round of sin and pain-
And vainly man confines his search-

And heart-sick prov'd each promis'd good To scenes beneath the skies ;

An' ignis fatuus 'flame!
By hope deferr'd—and keen remorse, Seek ye that rest which earthly ills
That heart shall still be torn-

With brighter joys adorn ;
That seeks on earth the promised rest,

And find the promis'd recompense Appointed those who mourn.

For those that inly mourn ! N.N. THE AGED PHYSICIAN.

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that God is a very present help, panying narrative of the aged and will be an eternal refuge for Christian, who was the means of his people. ministering so greatly to my com- I was born in the year 176-, at fort and usefulness in a season of Edinburgh. My father and modeep affliction, cannot fail to inte- ther died whilst I was walking the rest, and I would hope be of real hospitals, leaving an only sister service to many. There was aged 13, to my care and guardiansimplicity and fervour about Dr. ship. They were pious people, M-, that made his company inex- but I am sorry to say, their chil. pressibly cheering and delightful,

not inclined to foland I would fain hope, that many

low their good example. My of your readers

may

feel as much sister had been sent to school when pleasure in perusing, as I have in

very young, and thus the one who transcribing records of a de- was most disposed to profit by parted friend.

their godly admonitions was reYour's truly,

moved from their immediate conPERSIS. trol. My dear mother rarely

enjoyed a day's ease, but I can You have asked me to write the well remember how she used to history of my early days; there is pray with me : for she was not nothing of the strange or the un- satisfied with the assertion that I common in them. I have had

had said my prayers. many trials and bereavements. I I commenced practising as a have known the joys of a happy physician at the usual age, and few family circle, and the sorrows of a can imagine the delight and ensolitary existence in a strange land. thusiasm with which I entered I am now old and grey-headed, upon my profession. Being in the and very shortly the hand that possession of a comfortable indenow traces these feeble characters, pendence, I enjoyed the luxury of and the tongue which speaks to not being obliged to work hard for a you of things which I have for- living, and I was enabled to pay gotten to write, will be stiff and more attention to the poorer classes speechless; but I am persuaded than my less favoured brethren that he who bas borne so long with

could have done. I was never in me in my wanderings, and the love want of patients. I only wish I that has loved me with such an had been then as much alive to everlasting tenderness, will guide the opportunities which were thus and direct me until I reach that afforded me of doing good to the happy country, where there is nei- souls of the many to whom I had ther sin, nor sorrow, nor separa- access, as I became soon after tion, where the inhabitant shall those opportunities passed away. not say, I am sick : and since

you

But at that time I cared for none desire to know more of me than of these things. Out of easiness you have yet heard, I can only of temper and kindness of dispopray that this record of my life sition, I did much that the world may serye to stimulate you in run- would applaud; but the charity ning the race upon which you

have and compassion which obtained for entered, may help you to rejoice in me so good a name amongst my the Lord your God, may encou- fellow-creatures, was rather from rage you in your exertions for the imitation and admiration of the souls of others, and prove to you maxim that · Fortune can give

nothing better than the power- that they remember the strict acnature nothing better than the will count that they must one day give of saving many,' than from the of how they have improved or pure principle of love for the souls neglected these opportunities.of those for whom Christ died, and Much is given to them, and much the desire to copy the mind that will be required. The physician was in him. I attended my parish is admitted where even the minischurch, for I thought it incumbent ter is excluded ; how important a upon me to be in my place once on profession is theirs, and what a the Sunday. I had great respect for wide field of usefulness lies before the truly religious, although I them? How sad is it where the thought many of them went too members give occasion for the far - were very busy—and some- complaint, • Where there are three what enthusiastic. But I was far doctors, there are three atheists; too much attached to my own the best of them go to hell ; for profession to quarrel with the they are not warned by diseases, clergy for making much of their's, they fare sumptuously, and humble and besides this, I had had too not their hearts before God.' It much experience of the efficacy of is not easy to say how much good a faithful pastor at the sick-bed in a medical attendant of right disthe day of distress, and at the positions may be the means of hour of death, to call in question effecting, and this without any inthe fact of their being actuated by trusion on the pastoral office-how some living principle which gave much service he may render the to them a power I could by no minister as well as the patient, by means attain. I was ready enough informing him when, and where, to look upon religion as an anodyne, and how he may be of use in some or cordial, to be used occasionally, cases with which he might not but with caution' among friends otherwise have been acquainted. and acquaintance; to be bad in The art of healing was first readiness against severe illnesses, practised by men who had the care sudden alarms, death-beds, and of souls, and I know not of any before funerals ; but though I be- reason, human or divine, why they lieved in its efficacy and thought it who profess that most noble of a most valuable nostrum, I felt my arts should neglect that higbest of own inability to administer it. It was an upproved armour ; and My dear sister lived with me rather than allow my patients to

when she left school. How shall suffer from the want of that which I speak of Maria ?-Oh, she was I could not supply, I was in the treasure ! I could not value habit of sending clergymen of aright a gentle, amiable, devoted whose general talents and acquire- sister. She is now

a saint in ments in the world's wisdom I had heaven. When she

was about but a

mean opinion, but whose twenty, we used often to converse fidelity and earnestness produced on religious subjects ; she was an effects which I could neither gain- interested inquirer -I a formal

assenter. Possessed of a deep And as one who is in the sear reverence for the word of God, she autumn of his existence, and who felt the obligation of complying must ere long be numbered with with its precepts : but with regard the departed, let me remind, let to its promises and consolations it me charge my brethren of the was a sealed book. She did not, medical profession, who are as so many people in this day of rich in means of doing good, and profession, take the latter and dispromoting the welfare of so many, regard the former. Her's was a

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