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dation, and could not repress the no friend told me of God; no one inthought that an answer to the ques; law. I have no recollection of having

structed me to lisp his name, or fear bis tion, “ who hath redness of eyes?"

ever passed a night in my life, till I was was very obvious. We have known more than twenty years of age, in a house something of the intimate connexion in which there was family prayer, or the between their place of meeting and reading of the Bible, as an act of religious

worship the grog-shop and bar-room. But

“My earliest recollections as to reli. here is a witness from the very cen. gion, are identified with Universalism." ter of the Universalist camp, who has * When I was six years of age, my father seen all its stations from that cen

embraced the doctrine of Universalism,

and became a preacher of the system. ter to its outposts, who has observed Nearly all that I heard upon the subject all the host from its leaders to its of religion, was favorable to Universallowest subaltern, who reveals the ism; nearly all my relatives were of that whole of what we had seen but a

faith ; and almost all my acquaintances

received the same sentiments. Very part, and, testifying to the utter cor- early I imbibed a hatred toward all sys. ruption and rottenness of the sys, tems that differed from this. So soon tem, more than confirms our obser.

were the seeds of error planted in my

heart.” pp. 7, 8. vation, and fully substantiates our reasonings from the nature of the When he was sixteen years of case. Mr. Smith has taken us into age, his attention was turned to the the “ chambers of imagery" of Uni- subject of personal religion. A seversalism. He has shown to us the riousness prevailed among his assointerior life of its ministry and their ciates, the influence of which he hearers. He has proved to us by felt. Ile thought his life was not demonstration that Universalism, what it should be, and that his heart which outwardly is by no means a was not right in the sight of God. whited and beautiful sepulcher, is His feelings were enlisted, and in surely “full of all uncleanness" some measure changed, so that he within. His testimony is that of one read the Bible with pleasure, and in who entered on his ministerial office some small meetings urged his fel. with enthusiasm, and performed its low men to repentance. But unforduties with great popularity, but by tunately, being in a community far the moral results of the faith, was from evangelical, and falling in with disappointed, disgusted, shocked, teachers of Universalism, and being till sensibility and conscience could assured that Universalism and perendure no longer.

sonal piety could harmonize, his reWe shall therefore, in our review ligious interest was turned into that of Mr. Smith's work, dwell princi- evil channel. He adopted the syspally on these two points.

tem of Universalism, began preparIt is a fact well worthy of our no. ation for its ministry, and preached tice, that Mr. Smith did not become his first sermon in Medway, Mass., a Universalist in opposition to early when between seventeen and eighreligious instruction, to all those as- teen years of age. About a year sociations which cluster around the after, in December, 1829, he re. family altar, and to the sacred and moved to Vermont, to take charge undying influences which parental of two Universalist societies, one in fidelity implants in the heart. Uni. Brattleboro' and the other in Guil. versalism was the religion of his ford. Having unbounded confi. childhood. He says

dence in the system which he had "I never enjoyed early religious in- adopted, he had no doubt that it struction. In my father's house there would work a great moral change was no family allar ; no voice of prayer in society, and used every exertion was there heard ; no reading of the Bible as an act of worship. I never enjoyed to spread that system, preaching the benefit of Sabbath school instruction; with all the ardor of youth and all

the fervor of sincerity. How his have I been complimented with maths; expectations were answered, he thus heard the scoffer and the vile hope the informs us.

good work would go on; and been wish. ed success in language too foul and offen.

sive to be repeated. When I saw a man "At the very outset, I was mortified at the results of my ministry, and pained pearance, 1 presumed him to be an inti

in my congregation of an intelligent apwith what I saw in those who were the loudest in their professions of regard del, and never in this respect was I mis

taken." for · the blessed doctrine,' as Universal

pp. 10, 11, 12. ism was usually called. I saw none of that reform which I expected would at.

“Often,” he says, “in the soli. lend my preaching; no moral reforma.

tude of my study, such questions as tion, though none needed it more than these, searching and painful, would my personal friends; no change for the arise. • Does good attend your better, though I saw many changes for the worse.

“I was praised in the bar: preaching? Do profaneness, Sab. rooms, and my health drank in almost bath-breaking, intemperance, licen. every tavern in the county. On the tiousness, fly at the approach of Sabbath, my congregation came direct your faith? Do religious fear, god. from the tavern to my meeting, and went as directly back to the tavern after the

liness, holiness, distinguish its re. meeting. The intermission was usually ception among men?'"" These repussed in discussing the merits of the flections, though they made him sermon, not always in the most decorous unhappy, did not yet shake his faith terins; and in drinking my health, with in his system. He consoled himself their best wishes for my successful vin. dication of the salvation of all men." with the thought, that the fault was

“ While those who attended upon my not in Universalism, but in its proministry were called the liberal party, I fessors. knew ihat most of them were profane men; a large portion were open disbe

In the year 1832, he accepted an lievers in the inspiration of the Bible; invitation to take charge of the Uniand nearly all had been peculiar for their versalist society in Hartford. There habits of Sabbath violation, passing the

he attracted a large congregation, day in business or in pleasure. In all things, save an attendance upon my

my and was highly esteemed and well preaching, they remained professedly and supported by his society. But no really the same. Men came together, good moral results attended his but not to be made better. They seem

ministry. ed to desire that their hands might be

The founders and chief strengthened in sin ; and thought the supporters of the society, its clerk, end of preaching to be, to prove that all a majority of its committee, and retribution was limited to this life, and

seven eighths of the pew-holders, that all men would finally be saved. When occasionally I urged upon my

were undisguised infidels. hearers the duties of life, and lightly re- “ But," he says, “ the absence of good proved their vices, I was told that such moral results was not the only evil with preaching was decidedly illiberal, and which I was called to coutend. I not very much like the orthodox. Nor were

only turned no sinner from the error of profaneness, gambling, Sabbath-breaking,

his ways; called back no soul from the or infidelity, regarded as in any respect road of death ; but I saw positive evils inconsistent with a profession of Univer- attending my labors. Many who attendsalism. One of the officers of

my
socie-

ed my ministry were grossly immoral, ty in Guilford, was in the habit of going and more were waxing worse and worse. into the adjoining towns to hear me “ One fact that transpired among others, preach; and I have known bim repeated. made me very unhappy. On Sabbath ly to pass nearly the whole Saturday evenings my church was usually crowded night in gambling with young men at a

with young men. Many of these would tavern-young men whom he had invi.

leave the bar-rooms and dram.shops in ted to accompany him to ineeting. And

the vicinity of my meeting-house, aitend at the same time this individual was en

my lecture, and ihen retire again, at its gaged in a controversy in a secular paper close, to those places of infamy, and there with a Methodist clergyman, upon the

pass nearly the whole night. They moral tendency of Universalism!”

would drink my health, and praise me "One uniform lendency accompanied and my sermons in the awful words of Universalism in all places. One class of profaneness and blasphemy.” pp. 16, 17. men hailed the doctrine, and wished the preacher abundant success.'

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Oppressed beyond measure by these facts; not willing to do his distressed, and could find no peace fellow men an injury, yet knowing unless by a great effort he banished that many could justly accuse him the whole subject from his mind, as the author of their ruin; morti. and turned his attention to somefied and appalled at the contrast be- thing else.

He wrote and preached tween the character and spirit of the. often under the influence of doubts orthodox community and that of his almost overwhelming. Once in orown community, and between the der to remove his doubts, he wrote results of orthodox preaching and a sermon in which he presented in those of his own; harassed by the strongest form all the arguments doubts, and worn down by anxie- he could think of in defense of Unity and incessant labor, his health versalism. He preached the serand reason gave way. During his mon but once, and though his people mental alienation, his whole theme requested it for the press, he comwas Universalism, its tendency, and mitted it to the flames. When he the insufficiency of the proof ad- conversed with his ministerial assoduced for its support. On this sub- ciates for relief, he did not experiject he had conversations at that ence it, but often found them in time with two of the pastors of that deeper difficulty than himself. He city, in which he revealed what was resolved at length to dismiss the passing in his mind.

subject of man's destiny altogether After he had partially recovered from his sermons, and to preach on his health, feeling that he could re- moral subjects and the practical dumain no longer in Hartford, he re- ties of life, without saying any thing signed his charge, resolved to seek in respect to the final salvation of another field of labor. Compelled to all men. reject ultra Universalism, he adopted

" This change," he says, " in the subthe doctrine of limited future pun- jects of my sermons was soon noticed, ishment. Distressed at the immo- and complained of. Some desired a lit. ralities of his denomination, he de

tle more doctrine. Others thought the termined to preach less against the

youth ought to be indoctrinated, and that

the minister ought to do it. From vari. faith of other sects, and more ous sources,

I would hear that 'strangers against the sins of his own society; who entered my church could not tell less upon the certainty of the salva

what my views were ; and my society tion of all men, and more upon the

considered it a reproach, that men could

hear a Universalist preach, and not know duties of life. He was soon settled whether or not he believed that all men over a Universalist society in Salem.

would be saved. While others, out of There his congregation was one of regard to my health and ease, desired me

to preach some of my old sermons-ihe the largest in the city ; but the design being to obtain the doctrine which practical results of his ministry those sermons were known to contain." were the same

as before. could not rest in the doctrine, which But notwithstanding this farther by an ascending step he had adopt- change, his mind was not at rest. ed, of limited future punishment. He had dismissed the subject of Its effect was much the same as that inan's final destiny from his preachof ultra Universalism, and moreover ing, but he could not dismiss it from he could find in the Bible no evi- his thoughts. And though he did dence of any limit to future punish- not yet give up his faith in the ultiment, and the same reasons by mate salvation of all men, he felt which he proved any punishment that as an honest man he could no hereafter, demanded its perpetuity. longer represent a system which Yet, unable to give up his faith in the was plainly at war with the interultimate salvation of all men, deter- ests of his race. He therefore wrote mined to cling to that, he was greatly a letter to the committee of the Uni

He p. 28.

p. 30.

versalist society, in which among take hold of my own heart, and allow other things, he said:

me to speak to the hearts of my fellow

men. I was now, in a measure, afloat. “ If I could serve the society without I had no settled opinions upon religion. acting in concert or being identified with On what side soever I turned, I found the denomination of Universalists, I difficulties; and on all sides, the horizon should be ready and happy so to do.

was black indeed." “I had no religious “ If, however, the society should insist 'acquaintance, to whom I could unburden upon such a concert of action, I shall my mind. My sufferings were great; hold myself ready, cheerfully, and with my anguish more exquisite than language the kindest feelings, forthwith to tender can paint. I did not know where to go, my resignation of the office of pastor, and or to whom I could speak; and it seemed with it all the duties, trials, and responsi- to me literally, that no man cared for bilities of that trust.

my soul.' I would have given all I pos. The committee to whom this letter whom' I could have unbosomed myself;

sessed, to have found some friend to was sent, called upon him to induce who would have said some kind ihing, him to take it back-expressed their or bid me hope in God. But I did not surprise—thought he was commit- dare trust even my own family. Though

it seemed to me that every man I met ting a suicidal act, and assured him read my feelings in my countenance, that if he would take back the letter kept them to myself till I was carried and continue his labors, they would almost into my grave." pledge him their honors that no mor.

A complaint which, from my child

hood, bas been the bane of my existence, tal should ever know that it had and which in Hartford had led 10 tempobeen written. He told them that rary derangement, threatened to return. the sentiments he had expressed re

I was admonished that it was time to

seek medical advice.” pp. 33, 34. mained unchanged, and that he could not eat the bread of dishon- Finding that he could not otheresty-resigned his office, and from wise answer necessary questions, he that hour has had no official con- unburdened his mind to his physinexion with Universalism.

cian, who warmly sympathized with Impelled by his increasing doubts him, and urged him not to incur the about the ultimate salvation of all great hazard of bearing this state of men, he resolved thoroughly and feeling alone, but to seek assistance faithíully to review and weigh all from some religious teacher. Unthe arguments for and against that willing to commit himself by seekdoctrine. The result of this review ing sympathy or instruction from was his full conviction, “ that Uni- those near him, with a trembling versalism is as false in theory as it spirit and great anxiety he wrote to is destructive in practice.” But the Rev. Dr. Hawes, with whom he had same gracious Spirit who had led some acquaintance, and communi. him to reject that false system, still cated to him his difficulties. The urged him on, and pressed the in- answer, which was sent immediatequiry, “What is truth?” For the ly, was such as might have been system denominated orthodoxy he expected in such circumstances, had by early association and long from such a source. habit the most perfect contempt and abhorrence. Still, he was con

" A letter,” says Mr. S., " so full of

Christian sympathy I did not expeci, strained to look at religion as a per- and, I know not why, I was unmanned sonal concern, and to consider the for a season, and unfitted for any duty. question, whether he had met with

As soon as my feelings subsided, I re

solved to be a Christian, if God would that change and formed that char. give me grace, to live in his service, and acter which the Bible declares to die in his cause. be essential to salvation.

“But peace came not in an hour. A

deep probing of my own soul took place. 6 I felt," says he, " that there was a My sins were set in order before ine, and reality in religion, which I had never unless belp came from the cross, I felt known, a power that I had never enjoy. that I must perish, and perish most justly; ed. I longed for something that would Against great light I had sinned, and

long and wilfully resisted the truth. I change of views; the anxiety athad employed my strength in strengthen- tending an examination before an pling the world of despair with immors association of pastors for license to tal souls. What right had I to expect preach the Gospel, and before the mercy? what claim upon the grace of Tabernacle church in Salem for God? I was encompassed with awful admission to its communion, added fears. My days were wretched my nights were passed in anguish that drove to repeated and exciting conversasleep from my pillow. I was awfully tions and arguments with his Univerlempted to leave this world unbidden, salist acquaintance, were too much but I dared not do it. I was certain, if both for body and mind. The disI did, I should go to hell. My appetite was gone, my health declining, my

ease to which he was liable tri. strength almost exhausted. O, the worm- umphed for several weeks, during wood and the gall of those dark and try; which, under the influence of sug. out upon my memory! How harrowing gestions and objections urged by his the recital!" I have barely firmness suffi- former friends, his mind vacillated cient to pen these events.

respecting the strict eternity of fu* But God at last heard my prayer, and ture punishment. Taking advangave me peace.” pp. 40, 41.

tage of this, his enemies raised the To his great surprise and joy, shout that he had returned to Uniwhen, with much solicitude as to the versalism. result, he communicated his feelings At this time, for the restoration to his wife, he found that she was of his health, and for advice and prepared fully to sympathize with sympathy, he made a visit to Rev. him. Her faith in Universalism was Dr. Hawes. While in his family first shaken by the conduct and con- his health was improved, his mind versation of Universalist ministers became calm and decided, and his who visited at his house. She felt heart fixed. that a system could be neither true

“ It is but just to say," he remarks, nor profitable which had such advo- that, if I shall ever be of any

service cates; and several months before his in the ministry of Jesus Christ, it will be conversion, she had found the Savior very much owing to the friendly atten

tions, the judicious instructions, and the precious to her soul; though from Christian sympathy, which I received fear that a knowledge of her change from Dr. Hawes, his kind family, and his would make him unhappy, she affectionate church.” had not communicated it to him. After this he spent a few months “Could any one marvel,” he asks, in New Haven, attending to theo“that our first family altar should logical study, where, on the last be one of thanksgiving to that God Sabbath in the year 1840,

a year who had opened our eyes, touched full of change, anxiety and sufferour hearts, and enabled us to begin ing,” he, together with his wife, en. together a new life in Christ ?” tered, on profession of their faith,

But his long course of distress as into communion with the First to the moral results of his preach. church, in that city. During the ing, and of doubt as to its truth; next month he took license to preach, his subsequent unsettled state, his from the New Haven West Assoconviction of sin, and anxiety as to ciation, and since that time has been his own salvation, together with the constantly, and we hardly need say hatred and calumny and varied per successfully, employed in building secution of his former associates up the faith which he once destroy. and friends, which affected the ed. He is now the regular paspublic mind with suspicion and dis- tor of a Congregational church in trust; the excitement of addressing Nashua, N. H. in these circumstances an immense It is a most interesting fact, that congregation on the subject of his Mr. Smith is, the child of a pious Vol. 1.

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