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I was well enough acquainted with the general character of mankind, and in particular with that of my own countrymen, to expect to be as much out of the minds of the tories during my exile, as if we had never lived and acted together. I depended on being forgot by them, and was far from imagining it possible that I should be remembered, only to be condemned louldly by one half of them, and to be tacitly cenfured by the greatest part of the other half. As soon as I was feparated from the pretender and his interest, I declared myself to be fo, and I gave directions for writing into England what I judged sufficient to put my friends on their guard against any surprise concerning an event which it was their interest, as well as mine, that they should be very rightly informed about.

As soon as the pretender's adherents began to clamor against me in this country, and to difperle their scandal by circular letters every where else, I


gave directions for writing into England again. Their groundless articles of accusation were refut-ed, and enough was said to give my friends a general idea of what had happened to me, and at least to make them suspend the fixing any opinion till such time as I should be able to write more fully and plainly to them myself. To condemn no person unheard is a rule of natural equity, which we see rarely violated in Turky, or in the country where I am writing : that it would not be so with me in Great Britain, I confess that I flattered myself. I dwelt securely in this confidence, and gave very little attention to any of those scurrilous methods which were taken, about this time, to blast my reputation. The event of things has shewn, that I trusted too much to my own innocence, and to the justice of my old friends.

It was obvious, that the Chevalier and the Earl of Mar hoped to load me with the imputation of treachery, incapacity to them of which. If they could ascribe to one of those their not being supported from France, they imagined that they should justify their precipitate flight from Scotland, which many of their fastest friends exclaimed against; and that they should varnish over that original capital fault, the drawing the Highlanders together in arms at the time and in the manner in which it was done.

The Scotch, who fell at once from all the fanguine expectations with which they had been sooth. ed, and who found themselves reduced to despair, were easy to be incensed: they had received no fupport whatever; and it was natural for them rather to believe, that they failed of this support by my. fault, than to imagine their general had prevailed on them to rise in the very point of time when it was impossible that they should be supported from


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France, or from any other part of the world. The Duke of Ormond, who had been the bubble of his own popularity, was enough out of humor with the general turn of affairs to be easily set against any particular man. The emissaries of this court, whole commission was to amuse, had imposed upon him all along, and there were other busy people who thought to find their account in having him to themselves. I had never been in his secret whilft we were in England together :. and from his first coming into France he was either prevailed upon by others, or, which I rather believe, he concurred with others to keep me out of it. The perfect indifference I shewed whether I was in it or no, might carry him from acting separately, to act against me.

The whole tribe of Irish and other Papists were ready to seise the first opportunity of venting their {pleen against a man, who had constantly avoided all intimacy with them; who acted in the same cause, but on a different principle, and who meant no one thing in the world less than raising them to the advantages which they expected.

That these several persons, for the reasons I have mentioned, should join in a cry against me, is not very marvellous: the contrary would be fo to a man who knows them as well as I do. But that the English tories should serve as echoes to them, nay, more, that my character should continue doubtful at best amongst you, when those who first propa. gated the fiander are become ashamed of railing without proof, and have dropped the clamor, this I own that I never expected, and I may be allowed to say, that as it is an extreme surprise, so it shall be a lesson to me.

The whigs impeached and attainted me. They went farther--at least in my way of thinking that


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ftep was more cruel than all the others-by a par. tial representation of facts, and pieces of facts, put together as it best suited their purpose, and published to the whole world, they did all that in them lay to expose me for a fool, and to brand me for a knave. But then I had deserved this abundantly at their hands, according to the notions of partyjustice. The tories have not indeed impeached nor attainted me; but they have done, and are still doing something very like to that which I took worse of the whigs, than the impeachment and attainder: and this, after I have shewn an inviolable attachment to the service, and almost an implicit obedience to the will of the party; when I am actually an out-law, deprived of my honors, stripped of my fortune, and cut off from my family and my country for their fakes.

Some of the persons who have seen me here, and with whom I have had the pleasure to talk of you, may, perhaps, have told you, that far from being oppressed by that storm of misfortunes in which I have been tossed of late, I bear up against it with firmness enough, and even with alacrity. It is true, I do so: but it is true likewise, that the last burst of the cloud has gone near to overwhelm me. From our enemies we expect evil treatment of we are prepared for it, we are animated by it, and we fometimes triumph in it: but when our friends abandon us, when they wound us, and when they take, to do this, an occasion where we stand the most in need of their support, and have the best title to it, the firmest mind finds it hard to resist.

Nothing kept up my spirits when I was first reduced to the very circumstances I now describe, fo much as the confideration of the delusions under which I knew that the tories lay, and the hopes I entertained of being able soon to open their eyes,


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