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in grace, during the last years his nervous system, as to render of his life, and his exertions to him incapable of conversing promote and extend the cause much with his friends, during of religion, were redoubled. his illness. In the former part His time became so wholly en- of it, at a time when he was in grossed with his theological stu- full possession of his reason, bedies, and ministerial labors, as ing asked by a Christian friend to injure his health. And even to express his views of eternal the last year of his life, his mind things, he replied, that, ale was so carried away, and trans- though his mind was weak, yet ported with his Master's work, he was fully established in the bes as almost wholly to withdraw his lief of the reality of that Gospel, attention from temporal con- which he had preached; that he cerns. His mind was deeply viewed the road to Heaven to be impressed, with a growing sense that straight and narrow path of the responsibility of Gospel pointed out in Scripture; and ministers, and he fully realized that he had some interesting the importance of their knowing views of that glorious covenant, nothing, save Jesus Christ, and in which there was enough. him crucified. He saw much Throughout his whole sickness, for ministers to do, with but lit- whenever he had the exercise tle time for its performance. of reason, he gave the strongest

Before he was removed from testimony, that the religion of his spiritual labors, he saw with Jesus, which he had professed, joy the work of the Lord pros- was still his support and happiper, in this part of the country. During the last days of There continued to be additions his illness, when his body was to his church, from the time of too weak for conversation, his its first formation; and its mem- mind was wholly absorbed in debers gradually advanced in

advanced in votional exercises. In his last Christian graces, and in the moments, he manifested entire knowledge of divine things, Acomposure and resignation, and short time before his death, he said, he still enjoyert divine supconstituted three churches: one port, and found Christ sufficient in the vicinity of Bach: and the for him. On Sunday the 13th other two, in the adjoining of September, 1812, this emicounty of Allegany; over which nent servant of the Lord rested pastors were ordained.

It was from his labors, and fell asleep at one of these ordinations, at in Jesus. Angelica in the county of Alle. In his ordinary deportment, gany, that he was seized with he was serious, and reserved; ihe fever of wloch he died. He but when called to attend to had been appointed to preach things of a spiritual, and relig. the ordination sermon: but his ious nature, prompt, sociable,and sickness preventeel. He was zealous; at the same time, he confined to his bed from the time maintained a gravity, becoming of his return, with the nervous the importance of eternal things. putrid fever, of which he died From childhood, he was remarkin about three weeks. The vio- able for his benevolent and charlence of the disease so affected itable disposition, which increas

ness.

HIS AGE.

ed, as he advanced in divine allotted for his work, few have knowledge. The poor and the been the instruments of doing afflicted ever found in him a more for their divine Master. comforter and benefactor. To his connexions and acquaintance,

MEMOIRS he was, invariably, a faithful

OF CAPT. ABIJAH PERKINS, WHO friend, and able counsellor. He DIED AT WINDHAM, SCOTLAND was most scrupulously exact in SOCIETY, (conn.) DEC. 11, keeping the commandments of 1812, IN THE 34TH YEAR OF God, and in ordering his conversation in conformity to the precepts of the Gospel. Accord. This man was blessed with a ing to this principle, it was his Christian education, was in the invariable practice to spend his habit, from his childhood, of attime, either in doing, or in con- tending the public worship of versing on, things of momentous God, and had a speculative beconcern. Though, in his relig. Jief in the doctrines of the Gosion, he was careful to avoid every pel. He was, in his manners, thing ostentatious, there is the easy and agreeable; in his dealmost abundant evidence, that he ing's, upright; and in his general spent much time in secret devo- intercourse with mankind, calcution. Any violation of the di- lated to gain their friendship vine law by others, always gave and esteem. But, by his own him more pain than temporal confession, he lived, ill a short afflictions.

time before his death, without Having made respectable at God in the world, a stranger to tainments, in human and divine the exercise and comforts of re. knowledge, and possessing a ligion. It pleased a sovereign heart deeply impressed with the and merciful God, however, to worth of souls, and the import- call him by his grace, and to ance of eternal things, his give him great joy and peace in preaching was original, doc. believing, and a hope unshaken trinal, distinguishing, and in the awful moments of dissopeculiarly edifying, and im- lution. The following sketch pressive; and afforded, at all of the dealings of God towards times, a word in season, which him was given by himself, but seldom failed of leaving an abide two days before his death, Being impression on the hearers. ing attended by an intimate The doctrines of grace, and the friend, he awoke, as it were, extent, and spirituality of the di- from meditation, and thus advine law, were ever clearly set dressed his attendant: “Come, I forth, and faithiully inculcated,

want to tell you how God has in his sermons; and nothing dealt with mc."

He then procould induce him to keep back ceeded, “You know my manner from his hearers any truths con- of life, which I think has been, tained in the revealed will of for the most part, orderly and God. Many have lived in more moral, I having been from my conspicuous, and popular situa- youth taught to attend meeting, tions; but considering those and reverence the Sabbath. I which were assigned him, by had felt in general no great redivine providence, and the time morse of conscience on account

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of the transactions of my life, till der. My complaint, I soon conabout four years ago. Then, in cluded, must destroy my body. conversation with a friend, I My concern for my body, how. was warned of the great evil ever, was nothing compared to and dangerous consequences of that for my soul. The horrors using profane language, to which of my mind were so great, as to I was in some degree addicted. deprive me of rest or ease in This timely and friendly reproof any way, and even of satisfacgave me such a view of this tion in the company of iny nearsin, and made such an impres- cst friends. I viewed myself as sion on my mind, that I have a sinner both by nature and been restrained from it ever practice. My sins appeared so since. Having no evidence, great, that I began to despair, that I was a new creature, I be- thinking God could not have gan from that time to meditate

mercy on

so great a sinner. more on the doctrines of the Jn this distress I cried to the Gospel, and to attend

Son of God to intercede for strictly to preaching, and felt me before the Father. But more powerfully than ever, that in these requests, I had doubts I had nothing of my own to re• resting on my mind; and again commend me to the grace of despair got almost full posses. God, but stood in infinite need of sion of my soul. Still, however, the Savior of sinners, to plead I continued my cries to the my cause before the Father. Lord Jesus, without any relief Bút being busily engaged in the till the morning of the 25th concerns of the world, I became November, when, as I humbly in a measure inattentive to the

hope, and trust, God on a sud.. concerns of my soul, and nothing den appeared for my soul. This of particular importance occure transition, I cannot fully de. red till the last spring or sum- scribe. I saw the perfections of mer. Being then with a neigh- God in every thing I beheld. I bor in the fields, he observed to saw that my afflictions and sick. me: "Your concerns are numer- ness were all ordered in wise ous and complicated, and should dom, and that God could do me you be taken away suddenly, nu injustice. With wonder and your estate would be a difficult astonishment I viewed the love one to settle.” To which I an- and compassion of Christ to sin. swered: “no: my accounts are all

From this moment I beadjusted, and may be easily at- gan to loathe myself, and to won. tended to by another.” He re. der how Christ could take noplied: What is right; we ought tice of such a vile wretch as I always so to conduct our busi- was. But he was infinitely precness, that we may be ready to jous to my soul, and I longed 10 live or die.” This observation leave this world and all its enso operated on my mind, that joyments, that I might go and the following night I could not behold him face to face. In this sleep as usual. I was almost happy state of mind,” continued continually reflecting upon it, he, “I remained till the 29th of will seized with the sickness November in the afternoon, whịch I am now languishing un- when it pleased God to hide his

ners.

face from me. No tongue can with me and support me through express the horrors I then felt, the gloomy valley. There is having, as I supposed, been per- but one thing I wish to stay any mitted to taste the joys of the re- longer for, and that is, that I deemed,and being now thrust out might make a public profession of the presence of my God. In of my faith in Christ; be admitthis deep distress I cried to the ted into the church, and give my Savior, who, I humbly trust, children up to God in baptism.” heard

my prayers, had compas. On being informed, that if he sion on me, and interceded for lived till morning his request my help. My fears and doubts might be complied with, he began soon to be dispelled, and seemed to be animated, and my hope has been daily strength. said, “if I may live to accomening to the present time.” plish this object, if it be God's He then added, “I hope I am will, I hope with submission to not deceived, for, if I am, how depart, for I long to be with awful is my situation! I have to my dear Redeemer.” It was appearance almost done with the then said 10 liim, “your hope apworld.”—He then prayed, "O pears to be strong and unshaken, God, if I am deceived, for as eternity draws nearer to your Christ's sake may I be unde- view, and it is expected your ceived and plucked as a brand continuance here must be short; from the burning before I die." it is desired you would briefly He concluded his narrative of state what are the particular God's remarkable dealings to- articles of your faith.” He then wards him, by expressing the with solemnity said, “I believe benevolent feelings of his heart in God the Father, God the Son, in humble prayer, that not only and God the Holy Ghost; and his family and friends but all his that God is a God of justice, as fellow creatures might come and well as of mercy, and will by no taste the joys of the blessed; that means spare the guilty. I bcall might look to the Savior, lieve that God has ordained all and find mercy.

On being ask- things that come to pass. I be. ed, if he might live and get well, lieve that man in his natural whether this would not be state, has nothing to recommend his choice, he answered, "I him to the divine grace or favor, would choose it should be just and that all who do not exercise as God plcases, but if I should genuine repentance for their recover I am afraid I should sins, and like faith in the Lord again mingle with the world and Jesus Christ, will be doomed to dishonor God, so that if it be his eternal misery.” He then made will, I desire to depart and be some observations on the con

Redeemer." Being nexion which God has ordained asked if he was not afraid to die, between means and ends, the he said, “O no, my greatest importance of prayer, as a mean fears are, that I shall not be wil- of obtaining mercy, &c. and uniling to wait God's time. My formly manifested his firm be. hopes of a blessed immortalily lief, in the special agency of the far outweigh all fear of death, Divine Spirit in convincing, confor I believe that God will be verting, and sanctifying the soul.

with my

In short, he was a firm believer ing, perceiving that his deparin the great doctrines of grace. ture drew near. He looked upFor he expressly declared at the on her with a smile, and said, close of his account respecting “Olive, don't weep for me; I am his faith, “I would plead no mer going home.” Then turning to it of my own, for after all that his attendant, he added, "How God has done for me, if he troubled this woman is about should at last send me down to the fate of this body." Holding hell, he would do me no injus- his wife by the hand, he thus adtice. For it is all of grace if I dressed her. “Olive, I love am · saved." He then gave a

you more than any of God's kind of sigh or groan, but im. creatureb; but I love my Jesus mediately observed, “Shall I better. I can freely leave you complain, when this poor body and my dear children, to go and is afflicted? No; when I think be with him. Teach my chilhow much Jesus suffered that I dren to keep the Sabbath; teach might live, I am ashamed to them the Catechism; teach them complain.” He then raised his what is the chief end of man; hands and looking on them said, and let this in particular be “Jesus had nails driven through. strongly impressed on their his hands and feet, that he might minds. It was now light. He finish the work of redemption, repeated his request to be adthat sinners might be brought mitted to the church, and to give home to glory. Am I deceived? up his children in the ordi. I think I am not, I think I am nance of baptism. The Rev. willing to pass through this sea Mr. Fisher and the church of troubles, that I may go and were immediately sent for, and be with my Redeemer. Come came as soon as was expedient. Lord Jesus, o come quickly, He assented to the covenant and why are thy chariot wheels so was admitted to the church. long in coming. I long to be His strength of body was so far with thee. May God forgive, if exhausted, that it was expected I am impatient. Not my will he would need assistance in dedbut thine be done." Early on icating his children to God. the next following morning his But he remarkably revived, and mother came in to sce him, and said he must give them up himthus addressed him, “I had self. The children were in tears, doubts, my son, when I retired, but he addressed them with a whether I should see you alive smile, “I am going to give you again.” He with a smile, repli- up to God; I am a going to give ed, “Yes, it has pleased a holy you to a better Father than I God, to spare me to see you am.” He went through the

But this is of no whole with the greatest steadiconsequence, mother, don't be ness and composure of mind, troubled about this body. I have and the most apparent satisfac. got almost well." She asked tion. He appeared to be strengthhim if he was willing to give up ened for this duty, and to have al). “C) yes, said he, if it be joy unspeakable in performing God's will I shall soon be gone. this his last work. His wife stood by his bed weep- Solemnity and astonishmens,

once more.

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